Glitz

2006-01-19T23:16:00.000-08:00

taking a break for now.....
i'll be heading for multiply at the moment...
i'll be back after a while ...
no worries....
love to all who loves me...

2005-11-09T18:48:00.000-08:00

Selamat Hari Raya...
To all whom i love and love me back...
I would like to apologise as much as i could...
I'm sorry if,
i've caused a stir in your life
Let's forgive and move on...

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New year - New Theme
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This year my house was given a whole new look ... 3 years was up the 'white-grey-modern' looking look got to go.
It was quite a difficult decision as we are not sure of the color that suits our theme for the next 3 years..
Looking at our past colors...
We have already painted the whole house in shades of pink and white when my mum & dad was in the mood for family expansion! therefore the theme was "Pink in Health"..
When the pink spirits fade out...we decided to go for the 'white-grey-modern'looking theme cause we wanted to match it with our new silver Rav 4!

We took about 2 weeks to decide on the color! We spent countless night for our family meetings held on my parents queen size bed! We wanted something that brightens up the house..cause Miss Nat Junior is growing up so i felt that bright colors are suitable for growing kids especially when they are attending Kindergarten. After browsing all the catalogues we've decided on YELLOW!
Painting works started from the second week of fasting month. My brothers brought his frens over to help and as usual my honey contributed his energy too!

I took 2 days to planned out the re-furnishing process operation. Dad had given us(mum & i) the green light to get a new sofa set. Mum & i have always dreamed of having those huge fabric sofas, we didnt get it before cause we had 3 aspiring artists. As all 3 were still on the verge of growing up, we couldnt curb their hyper limbs. Fabric sofa was a no-no for us then as its quite difficult to change the sheet, or should i say expensive!!.

But now its possible !! Dad, Mum and i have alredy falled in love with a particular sofa set. So choosing our sofa was a quicky task.

As this year was a prosperous year for my dad (allhamdulilah,praise the lord)i've decided on a theme (finally!!)
Yellow walls, green sofa set with a touch of bronze....
Gold Door:: Black Gates:: Gold frame wall clock:: Gold dining set...
ahhhhh....
Theme: "Pot of Gold"

Painting works was done on weekends only ... so u can imagine how messy my house is for the month of ramadhan..Took us 2saturdays & 2sundays to complete.
Next was my room!
In the past my room was blessed with pink cause i was crazy for pink!
Then when i entered poly dad gave me a 'bonus' to re furnished my room. SPlash my favourite color - Green! And beautify my room with the help of IKEA!
after a few years i got sick of it...i was on the verge of womanhood...i change the bright limey green to a dark velvet purple!

I didnt plan to paint my room but my hand got itchy, so i 'deleted' purple and spend mon-fri thinking....
Staring at the 4 white walls....as i was cleaning my room or shd i say my store (dad calls my room a store! mum calls it a junkyard!)
i cant even see the floor... i had to bunk in the boys room and sleep on a mattress for the rest of ramadhan!! Thank god my bro finish paiting his room...if not i guess all of us will have to bunk in our parents room!!
Hakim & Afi's room was bright red..matches with their existing build-in wadrobe white-red. I was telling my two brothers, i'm proud that you guys are showing some love for our country!!haha! So come august we just need to draw 5 stars and a crescent. i guess we can leave that job to our Miss Natisha!

i skipped my dance practice for the whole ramadhan...and the rest was disappointed...haikz! wat to do...my weekdays nite are filled with work and trips to geylang! ANd my weekends i'm back to work on my house and my room.

This year my babes and i was too lazy to walk ard geylang dunch know why...we only go geylang to buy food and hang out at Malay Village, if not, then i spent most of my time at kak atik's shop... choosing my baju, settling the boys samping, my honey baju.

My Honey on Blings! - straight down to metropolitain!
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My Baby really was so into buying lots of baju kurung this year! Sometimes it got me thinking! Why didnt i look enthused as him! haha!

He finally bought 3 pairs!!!!
gosh!
Actually its not the quantity that suprised me its how he accessorized himself!!
With diamonte buttons...
2 gold brooches pin up on his 12 inch songkok...
And of course he plans to add more!!!
like the new burberry shades that we gonna collect soon!!!
hmmmm.....my man finally joining the metrosexual stream!

.......to be continued later.....
i'm going for yet another battle.....

2005-10-21T15:35:00.000-07:00

he forgot bout' our anniversary i got him a card and all now i feel like just tearing it or burning it ...

2005-10-14T01:10:00.001-07:00

m r s f o r z y

2005-10-14T01:10:00.000-07:00

m r s f o r z y

2005-10-13T21:32:00.000-07:00

c o m m i s s i o n i n g b a l l

2005-10-11T20:42:00.000-07:00

m r a n d m r s f o r z e

2005-10-11T20:40:00.000-07:00

t h e o f f i c e r s ' w i v e s

2005-10-11T20:37:00.000-07:00

t h e o f f i c e r s

2005-10-11T18:45:00.000-07:00

Officer Cadet School Commissioning Ball - Grand Corpthorne
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A week after the Parade they held the ball.
My hunny waited 9 months for this parade!
Its an important event for him, and it is to me too!
He keeps singing that greenday song over and over again...
"....wake me up when september ends..."

The hunt for my gown was so stressful, i tried dresses from all the shops, from Daniel yam, arther yen, chloe. song & kelly, perfect in black, u name it i tried it all!!! and i'm sick of it!!!
But actually not bad...at least i have settled for 2 dresses, one golden brown gown from Arther Yen and champange gold gown from Daniel Yam.
i tot now tat we are down to two, it will be less stressful!!
Untill my dearest came back telling me....ouh gosh most of my frens partners bought their dresses from Daniel Yam and Arther Yen!!!!
aaarrrgghh!!!
Search for my gown started all over again... i'm not going to buy a dress .. only to find out that a girl across me is wearing the same design but a diff color!!
And so, after all the hassle, i finally got my dress on the eve of the ball..............
from ----->>> Kak Atik!!!
Since Nigel gf, Jen, is wearing Sari, i might as well wear sumthin traditional too...
So i wored a tailored songket bustier and a long straight cut skirt.
It was 9pm, thank god Busu and Em was there...
Thanks Kak Atik for altering it in such a short time!!
Thank you bangat!
Poor hunny was sleeping away on the floor at bibik's shop, still clad in his army uniform, he patiently waited for me....love u honey
i still cant believe that i found my dress the day before,
and i bought my bag and shoes, cut my hair hours before the ball..
After dzul and i cut our hair we then proceed back to his place....
i splash all the necessary colors and glitters on my face and body...
Dzul look so dashing in his no.2 ....
We awaited for our ride....
Farid was kind enuf to drive us to the ball....Thanks a lot Farid...Love you lots!!
So we dress in style .... we came in style....
BMW 6 Series Baybeh!!!!!!!
The ride is like whoa!
My man is like whoa!
We party like whoa!

And thank goodness i didnt buy that dress at Daniel Yam ....cause true enuf' the other girl wore the same design tat i wanted but she bought the metallic silver instead.....praise the lord!

Thank u Kak Atik for making everything possible!,
Thanks u Busu & Em for helping me accessorized
Thank u Sabby for going gown hunting with me before u left!
Thank you Dad for finding and buying! (hehe!!) the right sets of bags and shoes at the very last hour!
Thank you dearest for tolerating my mood swings and my sensitivity..
Thank you bangat everyone!!

And Congrats my dear! For completing your course! Dun worry i know your 'left side' is heavy!!
So dun brag wit me ok!!! hehehe!! just pass me the earnings from that 'Left Side' of yours!

p/s: love u lots never none

This is just a ball and i have created a big huhaaa ....
i wonder how my wedding would be like!
I'm going to need to hire a wedding planner that possess a uber high level of tolerency
muahahahaha!!!

Till then......love to all who loves me....
Happy Ramadhan to all!

Lets hit Geylang!

2005-10-10T21:16:00.000-07:00

****this was the face i had after the lite up
a hungry me, an angry me, no food, no drink...
my hair so messed up....
my lashes not in place....
but still i could smile as if i'm beautiful!
just for the record....i took this so that i could
remember later on .....not to repeat such mistakes
in my decision-making.
::::G e y l a n g L i t e ' u p

Ramadhan is here again,
1st Oct was the lite' up.
1st Oct was also the day Dzul have been waiting for - Commissioning Parade

I was so excited bout the parade that i bought myself a new top.
Then came the news, "PS is going to be involve in the lite' up this sat"
In my heart, arrgh its ok! prolly they gonna just dance the 'Welcome Dance'
And i can participate in it next year...wad da hell , the parade is once in a lifetime!
Then Wati told me; "No Nat, we are gonna dance Zapin Gelombang!, and if you dun dance me or suhaila will have to learnt it in 1 week!"

Oh ok! So i tot maybe i shud re-decide!
wat will i lose for not going to the parade: dun get to place the rank on my hubby's shoulder
wat will i lose for not going to the lite'up: dun get to dance dat particular fav! piece, poor wati/suhaila will have to cramp everthin' in a week and i will never get to dance at Geylang lite up again cause this year is the last year!!!

So i told my baybeh that i will have to skip the parade, he was ok bout it....

I tot i was making the right choice! but wad a mistake!!!
i chose to participate in an unorganised-televised event instead of going to the parade.
I chose to walk down geylang roads instead of the SAFTI MI Parade SQ!
everything was crappy, poor us!
no transport, no place for our belongings, no instructions, no food, no drinks!
my poor dancemates have to tolerate nonsensical scenarios the whole evening!
as the saying goes, "A hungry woman is an angry woman"

i would prefer watching the parade in the hot sun !
anyways, at least the others didnt go thru it alone....at least we go thru it together!

2005-09-23T17:15:00.000-07:00

People always talk about (ey oh ey oh ey oh)
All the things their all about (ey oh ey oh ey oh)
Write it on a piece of paper,
Got a feeling i'll see you later.

There's something bout this,
Lets keep it moving,
And if its good lets just get something cooking.
Coz i really wanna rock with you,
I'm feeling some connection to the things you do.
(you do, you do).

[Chorus:]
I dont know what it is,
That makes me feel like this,
I dont know who you are,
But you must be some kind of superstar,
Coz you got all eyes on you no matter where you are,
(you just make me wanna play)

Baby take a look around (ey oh ey oh ey oh)
Everybody's getting down (ey oh ey oh ey oh)
Deal with all the problems later,
Bad boys on their best behaviour.

There's something bout you,
Lets keep it moving,
And if it's good lets just get something cooking,
Coz i really wanna rock with you,
I'm feeling some connection to the things you do,
(you do, you do).

I don't know what it is,
That makes me feel like this,
I don't know who you are,
But you must be some kind of superstar,
Coz you got all eyes on you no matter where you are,
(you just make me wanna play).

I like the way your movin' (ey oh ey oh ey oh)
I just get into the groove and then (you just make me wanna play),
If you just put pen to paper (ey oh ey oh ey oh)
Got that feeling i'll see you later.

Make your move, can we get a little closer,
You rock it just like you're supposed to,
Hey boy i ain't got nothing more to say,
Coz you just make me wanna play,

i don't know what it is,
That makes me feel like this,
i don't know,
Gotta be, gotta be a superstar,
All eyes on you.

ha ha ha!!!!....today i feel like a Superstar ...
cause i choreographed my dreams!!
Thank God its FRIDAY!!!

2005-09-20T19:55:00.000-07:00

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Wake me up when september ends....
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September came to me as a storm.....

i barely got over august and september came to me vigrously....

my honey always sings ...'wake me up,when september ends..' by greenday... he cant wait to be commissioned on 1st oct...

whereas...

i on the other hand... i wanted september to take its time....

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selamat tinggal kepada matahari, pasir dan laut milik tanahairku Singapura...

had a great time with the girls last week at KM8...
its been such a long time...

Abby wrote bout' that day on her multiply.... She told me she dunch know how should she write it... its a farewell to Sabby...but she was afraid to make it sound so sad so she wrote the opposite...but still we can feel the sadness flowing thru'...
abby's entry

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bagaimana cinta mula berputik.........

Firstly i would like to thank Farah who introduce her gurlfrens(Sabby,Ruzi&Ogy)to beeha, abby and me.

i guess this is fate eh....

Farah was in the same school with us, infact, she was in the same faculty as beeha and me for 3 yrs! And we never spoke to each other!!
3 yrs we only throw sweet smiles to each other when we cross each others path!
Until a year after graduation, i found out that dzul is her Uncle! haha!
Our first outing together was Clubbing at Coccolatte. That was when i first met Farah's gurlfrens...and coincidently it was also Ogy's hen night!
Farah continued her paper chase in melbourne and left Sabby and Ruzi to us... hehe!
Now Sabby continued her career development and left Ruzi to us...hehe!!
So that's why i told ab and beeha, "we are the leftovers club" BUT in a good way!
Is Ruzi gonna leave us soon after?

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Thank you yah - ku ucapkan pada mu!

Thanks Sabby for all the things you have done with me! and thanks for including me in your agenda! --> partner in crime!
gonna miss all the things we have done together....

all the lunch time experience
shopping for bags & shoes at ck tangs
beef noodles at scotts
ur mum's nasi goreng for breakfast
'lunch tanning' in the middle of taka
last minute gelare cravings on tuesday..
'make-up sessions' after office hour.. so how you da tahu cam mana nak potong tak?
'your crying session' at hollywood secrets
'Studio Shoot' with orange backgrd at RJS
Cocco-ing session..
'comfort food' at Starbucks..
'bday party surprises'
'cam whore'.....u always end up posing like saloma or audrey hepburn!

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kata akhir

in short i would say i'm gonna miss u lots....
the week after u left...most of my lunch time i spent it alone...
and i was asking myself... so wat now?
Sabby's not here, lunch seems to be so different...
i had chicken cheesestick+coke for 3 days in a row...
and everytime i drank coke, i was reminded of ur dislike for coke! hehe!
i was so lazy to go for early lunch and i'm so lazy to go anywhere far.

Anyway Sabby, I'm glad that you finally make it.
You tried so hard. You gave ur 110%. And thank god u survived!
I'm sure you gonna have lots of fun over there.
And i'm sure that you'll do just fine!
And any gurls down there who becomes one of ur close fren, is damn lucky!
Like abby wrote, dunch worry bout Fariq eh..he got more than enuf nannies
to take care of him, Mummy Ab from indon, Mummy Ruzi from China, Mummy Bhuh from india, Mummy Nutty from hhmmpphh..lets keep it simple .. from SG and finally Mummy Farah from philipines will be back soon! too bad Mummy Ogy cannot lah, she is in the hospital already! i guess might be in labour and the kid in her might wanna come out anytime soon!!!

Come back here often k Miss Sabby!
Dunch worry we will always keep an empty slot for you everytime and everywhere we go!
Remember next year we party Dubai style!

as i was writing this entry i realize that my eyelid shattered a couple of lashes...
my grandma used to tell me that if my lashes were to drop, it means that somebody is missing me! At that point of time i was worried...ouh gosh ! if everyone were to miss me to much i will be out of lashes in no time! ... So every time someone were to leave me i would tell them... "please dun miss me if u love me.."
haha! i know its stupid...but wat da hell....i was young and wasnt a bright kid..

So Miss Sabby shall i keep on missing u??
Ena & Farah are lashes still intact?? bluergh!!!

2005-09-19T21:52:00.000-07:00

:::::::::::Anugerah 2005

Anugerah was fantastic i almost cried....

i tot they gonna eliminate Azmir!!!
Of course i was a bit disappointed with the final selection....
Irwan got eliminated...
I was hoping the final 4 is Azmir, Fauzie Laily, irwan and khairul Anwar!!
But its ok as long as Azmir and Fauzy is in!!!
haha!!!
Can i date them????
I wanna date Azmir first then Fauzy! hehe!!
Dun worry Dzul say can! as long as he gets to date their gurlfren!!!

Anybody can give me the tix to watch Anugerah 2005 final on thursday 29th??

I want ......

1st --> Syed Azmir
2nd--> Fauzie Laily
3rd--> khairul Anwar

2005-09-19T08:17:00.000-07:00

My Darling Honey with his buddies...!!
I heard rumours saying that they are still available!! hmmmpphh!!

P/s: Jgn marah eh boys! i'm just kidding ! not trying to auction you guys out!!

2005-09-19T07:18:00.000-07:00

re-cap of our 'fun nights'at momo...

2005-09-16T21:48:00.000-07:00

CLUB MOMO

2005-09-15T23:46:00.000-07:00

i'm done.
no point polluting my blog.
i keep on yapping but no one understand wat i'm trying to say.
so i dun see the point.
i guess its my fault girl, like u said, no one read ur blog till i post it on my blog. maybe u r right and maybe i'm wrong.
Like i told two frens of mine 2days ago,
"maybe i know too much, maybe i know too little, either way i'm going out of my mind"

To my kuzzy aussie mates please make her happy k...

Tomorrow's mission is to enjoy one of our last moment with Sabby at Sentosa before she leaves us all in a jet plane....

i love u kuz
i love u bee
i love u abby
i still love u rozi

and i love my darling honey who is down with a fever and flu...

So long and good night!

2005-09-09T01:18:00.000-07:00

beehalawati::Tiaralawati:Natalawati::Abbylawati::Ruzilawati::Sabbylawati
::::::La Watikz Clan::::::

2005-09-09T00:55:00.000-07:00

"2 blind mice"

2005-09-02T21:18:00.000-07:00

August Babies
01 - Natalia
05 - Abby
08 - Ayie
23 - Dzul
29 - Bhuh

Continuing......august scenarios

like is say August is full of surprises!!

the nation's b'day
i had the nation celebrating my bday with me.... and do you guys know that in italy
august is a holiday month!!! i'm gonna migrate there!!!
NDP was tiring for all the dancers but it was fun!!
Weekends are burned prior to 9th August.
But when it finally ended i kinda miss it..

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heartbreak hotel
my dearest abby - may you find true love soon
i can feel your pain but i know it didnt help cause it didnt take the load off u.
i wish i culd do dat.
why must u run off like that - you Bali is Boonlay is it??
And aaren thanks for going after her by taking the evening flight!!
i didnt mean to be angry at the both of you but i just felt very sad!!
i wish i can just called up SQ and book my ticket to Bali on the Spot --- i'm not kidding i seriously will if i could! But to bad i can only buy a ticket to Boonlay instead! hehehe!

p/s - Happy Birthday Ayie
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EK BABE flying on a jet plane - dunch know when she'll be back again
sabby got into EK ... i'm so happy for her and i'm sad that she is gonna leave us....
good luck sabby!
remember eh next yr we party dubai style.
P/s: Abby, Beeha& Ruzi....Please dun think about running to Dubai whenever u guys are drown with sorrows and sadness even though Sabby is der... Can go ! but dun leave me messages like how abby did on Multiply! Dun treat Dubai as if as its Dhoby Ghaut!!! ouh k!!!

Gonna miss u sabby!

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two blind mice - see how they run , see how they run
Yup, yet another bday surprises.
This time round is for darling Dzul and sweetie Bhuh!
Another round of Momo-ing....

Bhuh was with Oms while dzul was with me.
I told Dzul lets spend the day together just the two of us, quality time needed since we haven done dat since he got enlisted.
We went to paragon at 'bump' into AB and Kaisi.
Dzul asked me where are they heading... then i casually ask abby.
Abby said, " uh we going to watch a 9 plus movie" ... hehehe
So since its just 7 plus 8 we sat together for a while.
At this time Bhuh is with Oms. The plan i told Oms was to meet at this dessert place at 830pm.
But then i got a call from Bhuh as early as 8pm...
"Naaaaatttttttttttt, guess who i saw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" i was like who?????
"Somebody i dun wanna see ever in my Life" i was like ouh Gosh shit!!!
Its the Jerk of the decade!!!
I told bhuh calm down !! i'm coming over!!
I quickly told Ab, "Red Alert, Red Alert....GF in need" hahaha!!
We need to go BK Liat now!!! Jerk of the decade is there!!
So all four of us rush over to Bk Liat....
There we found Bhuh looking pretty annoyed!
Why must he appear!!! All of us hate him so much! And we dun want her to reminise the bad past she went thru! He is suppose to be history!!
After a while we managed to calm her down.....back to our mission ---
'Surprise operation' activated.
Calls started to pour in ..... i have to create thousands of stories everytime somebody call my phone.!

Abby excused herself with kaisi, saying that they shd leave nw to buy tickets....
Sabby was incharged buying two cakes.....
I den start my 'stories'.
"bhuh, later wait for a while i need to meet up with Oms fren to discuss bout' the advertising thingy"
i den ask Oms to leave by 910pm....saying that he needs to meet his fren for a while...
By now, I'm alone handling these 2!
Dzul had a quick dinner at BK while me and Beeha...busy snapping pictures

Time Check : 930pm
Sabby still not there - got stucked in traffic
Abby and Oms are gathering all dzul's frens and bhuh's frens.....
I'm stucked with the two subjects. hahaha

Time Check : 940pm
Sabby almost der - Thank God!
Abby & Oms - frens CHECKED!
I'm stucked with two blind mice!!! hahaha
I took away their hp and ordered them to follow me!!
Bhuh and Dzul was like....."i know there's sumthin up"
But their guesses are all wrong.!!!hahaha!!

I called the cab took away their wallets!! hahaha!!!
Ordered them to wear eye masked!!
The taxi came....spoke a few words with him and he understood....
Pull them both - into the cab..... accidentally poked bhuh's eye!!! hahaha!
Dzul was like trying to figure out where are we going by estimating the turns and distance.....but of coz he dunch know cause both of them never been to MOMO!! One is at London the other is at Brunei when we last had the bash!!
Bhuh started screaming and shouted at the uncle.... "Uncle this girl crazy, kidnapping us, send her to IMH"
The cab driver was very co-operative he just kept quiet never said a word and turn to me and give me the 'O-K' sign!

hahaha!!

We finally reached!!

Dzul toppled over the curb hehehe!!!
Bhuh slip and fell!!
Oh well!!
its a one man show u know!!

the irony was that when everyone were crowding them quietly ..... bhuh was like , "hah, Sabby i can hear your voice" when sabby did not even utter a single sound!!!

Ouh well you know what is next......P-A-R-T-Y!!!!
Happy 23rd Birthday my darling Dzul
Happy 22nd Birthday my dearest Bhuh
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Pink Wedding
Sally & Indra....yup finally married....
loved the setting, love the walk - in (ofcourse i'm the flower girl! the traditional version of flower girl!) love the speech love the video!!
I wanna get married too!

Congats to both of you!

Anybody want a 'wedding planner' . Call me! Glitz'The Miracle Makers' - where i turn dreams to reality!
I'll give you your dream wedding!!

hahaha!!!!
i'm serious!
U wont get Punkd!

I end August with a kiss.....Till i see u again Augustus...

2005-09-01T21:45:00.000-07:00

Jo, Sabrina and me! Perfect in Black!

2005-09-01T09:38:00.000-07:00

yup from my cleopatra hair and a well blushed face....it turns to this!!!!! super-blushed!!!

2005-09-01T09:36:00.000-07:00

what shall i say ..... bf was in taiwan but MOMO still rawks my arse!! lots of thank yous i need to send....yu guys are wonderful!! party animals!!! ....

2005-09-01T02:00:00.000-07:00

August 05

i kept this entry as a draft ever since 1st august 05......and today i finally post it....august this year is full of 'surprises' - happy, love, sad, anger, disappointment, hatred, .... these are all the elements in august surprises...

When July retires for the year 05,
August begins with.....

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Last yr when i post my entry bout' Leo babies... my dearest beeha got jealous dat she is not in the list!...... but oh well , u r not a Leo babez my dear! bluergh!

recap........

"Wednesday, August 25, 2004
Leo babies!!my love ones...Jo 23rd july, Natalia(me!!) 1st Aug, Abby 5th Aug, Aisha 10th Aug, Dzul 23rd Aug
Leo are born between July 22nd and August 23rdLeo is a Fire sign.You are an extrovert. You love to be dramatic and play to an audience. You are only truly happy when the attention is on you! You are a born leader and thrive on recognition for your accomplishments. You are sometimes arrogant and lack tact. Your charm helps you in social situations and you are in your element when addressing a small social group. Leos tend to be a little self important and need to consider the wishes and feelings of others in social situations. Planetary Ruler: SunCompatible Star-Signs: Aries, Sagittarius, Gemini and Libra. (and of course living example of compatible star sign is Leo with Leo!! (me & my fruitheart!!)
Leo Gemstones: Onyx, Rock Crystal, Opal.."

yes she was so mad over this entry!

anywayz...
August is here again! one of my two fav months!
The other is Sweet November!
hmmpph! wat shall i name august...
hocus pocus august?
pretty august?
hot august? - applicable only in italy ya!
Lovable august?
hmmmph its making me 'confusicated'

This year my birthday falls on a monday... my least favourite day of the week....

My honey darl' was away to Brunei for his jungle training...first time
in four years i celebrated without him!
Just like any other year my family will bring me out on the eve. So as early as 10am on a sunday they wake me up with a birthday song and a cake! Gosh! thank god i wasnt half naked ! hehehe bluergh!
of course the best part was the prezzies from mum, brothers and my lil'sis!
We headed for Royal Plaza on Scotts for lunch...just our small little family....
When we reached the crowd wasnt there...so i guess we are the early birds for lunch eh..
The lady den showed us to our area, table was so big! So me being me ...i asked the lady,
"Can i trouble you to change our area to a smaller one, cause my mum book for 7!"
the lady gave me a question mark look???
then my mum quickly cut in and told her dun bother ... i asked her why ... she just steadily saying that its ok the table was fine...
So i thought hmm.. i guess it must be my dad..
Dad was so particular when comes to parking his car, so i thought he chose that spot so that he wun lose sight of his darling rav4..
Vienna started to fill up soon after...i wish dzul was there...
30 mins later as i was walking up to the buffet area i passed by the entrance, i saw a group of familiar faces....Gosh! my granny, my aunties, uncles, cousins are here!! aaahh!!! daaadddddyyy!!!!
i was so happy!!! everyone is here for my bday!
My dad was smilling away!!
I pulled my mum & dad one side...."Thanks eh for inviting them over! but we got a problem here!! Mum! look at wat i'm wearing !! a mini skirt!!"
my mum was like...'uuhhh i forgot to drop a hint'! wat a 'pleasant' surprise!
So i guess now i know why our area was like 2 tables good for 20!! nevertheless i love it! lots of love compensated!
So thats my dad's prezzie for me! well i guess i prefer to get love than get LV! even though in my head i cant help thingking that.....dad's lunch with love present cost 3/4 of the LV speedy bag that i want!!! correction 'i need'....hehehe!

::::0108::::
i woke up today ....look into the mirror....gosh! i'm one year older!
headed to work... decided not to take leave since its a monday..
but i met up with the girls... they told me that we'll meet as soon as i'm done. But things gets so confused.... when i'm done to my horror hafiz and beeha was still at home!
"its my bday!! and u all still at home!!!
Abby told me to meet her at M.Sultan at 7 in front of DBL O. In my heart i was thinking...Gosh wanna club so early ah and its a monday!!
I questioned Abby , then she said, she have to pick up something very important at her fren's shop...
"You wanna wait downstairs or follow me?"
before i could even answer her, she told me to follow her so that i wun be alone.
on the 2nd floor there's a few offices and Abby knocked on one of the doors.
When we enter the room ...it looks like a mani pedi shop...an indeed it is..
we were greeted by a small lady called Kelly.
An a moment later, kelly walk towards me and said, " Come lets go into dat room"
i was like huh?? wateva for?
Abby suddennly starts pushing me....Go Nat , go Nat!
uuhhhh??????
As the Black sliding door opens i saw a high bed! Aaaaarrgghh!!
WAXING!!! Noooo!!!
Abby was like laughing away!!
I asked kelly, wat kind of waxing u wanna perform on me???she just smiled and told me to take off my skirt! And cause i was in a shocking state...unknowingly i started to take off my Cardigan....hahaha!!
kelly was like...'No no! just your skirt! bluergh!! this is so embarassing! who shd i call now?? mum??
as kelly was performing her 'operations' i lay down stiffly...and kept shouting, "Abby i'm gonna kill you after i'm done!!"
i covered my face with the towel most of the time till its over 20 mins later...when i walked out of the room ...abby said.."you are a woman now" hahahaha!!!!
Dearest Abby thanx ! you gave me the most intresting gift that i'll never forget! *hugz*

Finally met up with beeha , oms, sean and hafiz.
ate at fish & Co wheelock.....and just when i thought surprises are over!! hahaha!!
Oms, with the help of the restaurant crews....got the 3 of us ice creams with cherry! and made the 3 of us stand on our chair while the crews sand bday song and "where do we go fish & co! where do we go fish & co!" haha!!
Thank god i didnt need to stand alone!!! phew!
it was embarassing! but pure fun! Thanks Oms

to be continued......

2005-08-31T21:33:00.000-07:00

yea bday gurls!! @ MOMO! we were crunked!

2005-07-26T23:00:00.000-07:00

--->>>05' BDAY BASH!

Yes i know i know ! u guys have been bugging me !!
This year no worries aint gonna make u guys travel all the way to east coast wearing white!
instead ...

put on your dancing shoes,
super duper sexy dress/tops
finish the whole jar of gel/wax
have a bath with your seducing perfumes
for all the hunkz ur cologne is ur weapon!
dun 4get ur credit cards / cash / NETS / IC
ur digital camera or camera phone to capture all the sworn-to-secrecy-evidence! and like AUnt Farah used to say "CAM-WHORE"
dashing smile & lifted brow
and finally your PARTY MOOD!!

.. MOMO's the place to be at once u get everything covered!!

Last year we did it on my bday (0108)
this year we are goin' to do it on ABBY SWEET bday (0508) !!!
So join us k!! we want to party with those who loves and adores us!
For those who hate us just be there and hate us even more!!! bluergh!

Unfortunately Aunt Farah, Darl' Ena, My sweet BEEha and my HOney Dearest are not gonna be MOMO-rized......

Aunt Farah and Ena is on a "paper chase"

Beeha is gonna be LOnDon-ing

Honey Dearest is attending a 'wild' party in the Brunei Jungle!

....wish u guys are here....

*p/s:

Beeha again this year u r not available!! but love u still!

Ena u better get ur butt here when u r done chasing!! no such thing as resting there when u r done! Enuf is enuf!

Venue : CLUB MOMO
Date : 5th August (fri)
Dress CODE : "Dress To KiLL"

::::Remarks::::
Free entry B4 10pm

After 10pm - >>>

"Hunks" $18, "Babes" $15 , "Divas" $18 "Cabin Crew": $FREE$

------->>>>TAG me if u guys still blur.....
on that board where everybody likes to bitch!

2005-07-21T23:12:00.000-07:00

21st nov 00

happy 56th mth anniversary dear..........

aarrrgghhh......i continue writing later..... too depressing...

2005-07-20T11:38:00.000-07:00

have patience my dear natalia ...

i'm left all alone again!
honey is now at Brunei....
why is NS so hard for me to swallow??
cant blame the army i guess ... cause he love it in one way or another..
although he claims he doesnt...who can he kid...
known him almost half of my adulthood..
i can see it in the boy's eyes...
but cant take the torcher of being away from him too long...
mum say cant help cause we are so used to see each other everyday when we were in sch, thats why i'm suffering the 'distant disease'.
even if he is not overseas he'll be in camp most of the time...
just when i'm used to see him only weekends they just have to sponge out more ... and left me with only a day in a week sometimes...
now that he is in brunei i cant even talk to him and he rarely message!
cant blame him....
Taiwan have cost him a damn big hole in his pocket ... or shd i say all his pockets!
M1 is so after him, mummy is so angry...
and its all my fault...
i shoudnt have called u like nobody business....
So i'm not gonna hear his voice for 21 days ...
i wish tommorow is already august...
NO! i'm so not looking forward for my bday!
So wat ! bday reminds me that i'm getting older!
wats the use celebrating when honey darl' is not here to spend it with me!
i forgot how to spend it alone! its been 4 years and i totally forgot how to spend it w/o him!
i wish its august 8 tomorrow! so i can have him back here in my arms!

We belong together (moi version)

I never feltThe feeling that I'm feeling now
Now that I don'tHear your voice
Or even touch or even kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
What I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
We belong together
When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
Baby nobody else
We belong together
I can't sleep at night
When you're all on my mind
My girl Sade on the radio
Singing to me ' i'll be there by your side baby '
Wait a minute
This is too deep, too deep
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Beyonce
' Dangerously in Love '
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart....

2005-07-07T03:29:00.000-07:00

::::evidence at the crime scene:::::

Crime Scene: Neptune Theatre
Victim: Majlis Pusat
The Killers: Farida - 'Farid'
Shiqin - 'Asthmatic Queen'
Leha - 'Queen of Gelek'
Ifah - 'The gurl with the Cutest BRo"
Wati - 'The kechik Meow Meow'
& finally ... i know you gurls want this so much!! i'll be glad to take the 'responsibilities'
Natalia - "The triple S bestfren!!!" bluerg!!
Evidence: Neptune Theatre:::collaboration with Majlis Pusat

p/s: too bad didn't take picture when kak liza & Abg Murah salsa-ing away in the dressing room!! muahahaha!! i guess everyone was too engrossed!

just a thought.........
hmmm....i'm contemplating between Salsa dance class or Exotic dance class.....
haiyak ! if only i take after my parents ! sumtimes i wonder how come i wasnt intrested in modern dancing, when for the fact that both of them were two committed dancers who started really young... my mum told me when she was carrying me she still accompanies my dad to dance classes... so how come i didnt become like them hmmm....
hahaha!! but i did become a dancer la bluergh!! bartop dancer by night...muahahaha!! bluergh!
A cultural Dancer for life!
Not bad wat! still possess similar traits wat!!
Anyway in the Malay dance arena.... they are getting more and more fusion more modern as well more artistic.... Just look at Gentarasa 05... nuff' said.

Sometimes i regret not taking dance as my major.... by heart i tink my dad wld agree but by life he just don't encouraged....
Sometimes i feel that i shd just ignore my dad's objection and i shd just follow my heart...
but again.... life is full of surprises . ..... i hate to regret wat i've done .... i choose to make the best out of it or live with it!

ok this just a thought but aaarrrrggghhhh which shall i take???
Exotic dance for Baybeh to see or
Salsa dance class with Baybeh!!
(OMG can u imagine me and my baybeh salsa-ing over at Chijmes!! hahaha!!!)

Good Night
Selamat Malam
Oyasumi nasai
Wan an

2005-07-03T07:02:00.000-07:00

:::Neptune theatre:::
Majlis Pusat Dinner
02.06.2005

The show includes ISMA the dance group from Malacca... and their percussionist too...i love dancing to live music seems to give me more positive ions.
i discover a thing or two while residing with M.Pusat, for instant like the prepration, never once in my years (although not a century long!) of dancing, that i actually start to get ready 6 hours before show! and i was impressed that by 730 when the '30 mins before the show' briefing everybody was ready !! wow! kudos to all!

Haha!! everytime PS or cairnhill or even TP had a show we are still rushing like mad by the time we reach the briefing period!! but of course we still make it la! bluergh! Each dancer armed with their makeup kit making themselves comfortable in front of the mirrors with bright bulbs all around (it's hot you know!) trying to make it done in less than 2 hours!
But yesterday was great ... instead of rushing ... we are being pampered by having make-up artist!! wah!!! so good!! i wish i can have them on every show!! hehehe!!! I practically took a short nap while they blush some magic on my face!! wat can be more wonderful!! Even hair also they do for you!! All the dancers have to do is to wear their own costumes!! bluergh!
Best kan!! nak lagi!! muahaha!!

The show ended at bout' eleven ... all headed home ...supposedly we plan to club or just have supper... but i guess everybody got their own agenda.... and i had mine too... poor baybeh had to spend his saturday slacking ard without me! he only get to see me at eleven plus! sorry honey!
Thank god he slept over my place! if not i would have gone bonkers! we spent the whole night yakking yakking!! hehehe!!! with his eyes closed also he can yak!! love ya baby! Thanks for entertaining me dearest... even though u r tired! love you heaps!

Well one show down two more to go! NDP and Cairnhill mini concert...i cant wait!!!
And i'm glad that PS and Cairnhill are expanding ... we welcome all the Juniors like Suhaini and sisters, the two slackers Suzy and LEla (i simply love their energy! they make me want to be 15 again!), and Adilah...
Hopefully u gerls will gain more experience whilst with us and widen your scope of arts with us at Cairnhill or PS!!
So gentarasa05 dah over so wat is next??? Sriwana 50th anniversary! jom !

2005-06-26T18:43:00.000-07:00

::::::all in less than 24hrs ::::::

was looking foward to go to fareez bbq party at his crib but everything didnt go as plan.
I had NDP combined practice on saturday, the sun was striking proudly at us. Our holding area wa at beach road camp. most of the roads surrounding padang at near cityhall & chijmes were closed. Instead of a bustling traffic, the roads are filled with marching officers clad in white uniforms and gracefull dancers swinging away beautiful props.
My dad was making noise complaining that these few months he'll incur losses since the roads are gonna be closed mostly on weekends. But at the same time he was excited! he actually came out of his shop and walk to the supreme court to catch a glimpse of the commotion. but too bad he got stopped by the officers!
It was tiring dancing at the speed of almost 20km/hr. We are not dancing at a stationary position mind you! we are like almost making small jogs thru'out the dance. We have to dance round the padang in less then 8 minutes !
Well i guess this might just help me in my weight management program! hehehe!
From cairnhill we have two floats, the Pioneer float and the Malay float. The pioneer floats dancers will be dancing with bamboo poles, that's where you can find our dearest Rozi a.k.a pole dancer! (muahaha!joking babe!) the malay float dancers (i'm here!) are dancing with Tepak Sireh. Dont be shock if you hear a ringing Tepak Sireh!! muahahaha!!! Cause we conveniently hid our hp in the Tepak Sireh so that .....hmmpphh... can call bf!!! hehehe!
All in all the combined practice ended at 8plus... headed back to cairnhill .... wash up cleanup...
BF still in camp!!!! so plans to go to Fareez's have to be cancelled! Sorry dearest Fareez! Happy Birthday!!

I then head to Bk Liat with the rest of the PS-ians. Finally Baby called to say he is on the way! thank god!
By the time he arrived it was almost ten! i hate the army!
He looked quite tired, and my boy's skin is getting tanner...
He sat down gave me a kiss looked at me with a relieved eyes showing that we are feeling the same thing! "finally u r back in my arms"
i got him his bbq turkey bacon double cheese... he complained bout just eating biscuits cause he dun like the ration! no wonder my baybeh is getting thinner!!! i hate the army...
After a while the rest decided to retire for home cause there's a show at Republic Poly the next morning....i tot Dzul and i gonna retire for home too ... but instead he cant resist the offer by his frens to club at cocco!!
So we got ourself mango frap while waiting for Andy to fetch us.
When they arrived, a familiar figure came out from the driver seat of the charming BMW.... looks like Fareez....hehehe....his brother la FArid.
andy was on the front seat... and at the back was farid's fren who look lik Glenn Ong, wandy, acapz,fizy, me and dzul....

at gallery we waited for salleh and farid wahyuni before entering...
its 1am when we enter cocco... one for one offer closed already!!
Bluergh!!! we came to have a partay and they just have to spoil it!!!
they refuse to let fizy and acapz in! wadahell!!
arrrgghh!! this is the second time it happens to me!! ferst was when i brought ena's "little boys" but hello!!! they are all above 18 at least!!
they can get drunk or crunk for all i care!! they are all legal in age!!!
phuck!

nevertheless had an awesome time but it could have been more crazier if those two are with us! at last they had their share of fun at Cheekiez! guys guys....tsk tsk tsk

we swarmed the dance floor till dj drem hit the lights with a closing note by outkast!! kinda miss DJ mylk!! hey Miss Farah ....suka eh baybeh dah pat sana!! have fun!! dun be naughty2 k!! Cocco is so different w/o your baybeh spinning! have fun sweetie!

@ gallerie's hotel carpark
while farid settle his parking card ....
my dearest was talking like my kid brother ... and i find it quite amusing cause it was in the wee hours.....muahahaha for all i know he might just be hallucinating!!

me: my dear can help me open the back of the car.. need to take my bag and urs too..
dear: ouh k...... hmmmph .....mana eh tak nampak pun...banyak nye button .... macam aeroplane..ada screen lah ade button ni ade button tu...macam2 lah...cam mana ni....eh kau tau cam mana nak buka tak....
a.k.a. Glenn ong: uh? entah eh ...
me: dear try jelah smua button!!cepat la
dear: cam mana?? i tak tahu ni aeroplane bukan kreta!!

yup of coz we finally got it open....and we headed back to woodlands home sweet home.... by the time dzul and i reach woodland was already 5.30am (i think) ..... we wash up and slept... tired already... cause we need to wake up at 9 am...
hahaha....ofcoz we overslept...we woke up at 11!!! bluergh!
plans to go sentosa with the rest who had soccer match at 9am had to be cancelled cause dearest had to book in at 2130...
bluergh!!

:::::snowhite needs her prince charming

we reach chai chee an hour past noon.... dearest wash his soiled clothes and prepare his pack to bring back to camp..ate lunch..then we continued our much needed sleep after watching Snowhite on Hallmark....

woke up close to 6... had tiff over a picture that are placed at a place where its not suppose to be at....
but couldnt be mad at my baybeh for long....
i'm such a crybaby yesterday....i cried almost on everything....
i'm so on a depression mode....i miss my baybeh i hate the army....took him away from me for 3 weeks....gave me only 3 days to cure my love sick...
then this week only give me less then 24hrs to spend time with my darlingz....
how could they be so mean!!!i hate the army!!
i sent him to boonlay despite my heavy head...
terrible headache....
cried cause i dun wan him to go ....
cried cause i felt so lonely w/o him....
cried cause i just simply miss him crazily...
and thanks to the army they are taking him away again in july to brunei!
phuck!

2005-06-24T10:11:00.000-07:00

19.06.05
a tribute to my dad for being a DAD to me for 24 years....

u taught me how to cry when u left me at ur mum's place when i was 6
u taught me how to cut my hair when i was 9
u taught me how to disipline myself when u left me on my own at 9
u taught me not to lie when i lied bout' having netball practice (that was cancelled!) when i was 15
u taught me how to spray on perfume at the most strategic place when i started to notice how seductive bvlgari extreme is when i was 17
u taught me not to wear 'atrocious' pants when u ask me to dump my 3/4 on the spot and bought me a super low levi's when i was 18
u taught me to forget quantity and pay more attention on quality when u bought me my first LV when i was 18
u taught me not choose my profession as a dancer when u agree bout' me taking that marketing course when i'm 18
u taught me that there's such thing as true love when u accepted DzuL into our family

yup thanks dad! u may not be perfect but you did wat you thought was sensible and that is enuf' for me... thanks for bringing me up and loving me with all your might!
24 years and still counting......

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the annual evening......

The annual father's day chalet that my family hosted still goes on this year despite the number of absentees....it's just not the same when its not complete.
there's only two dads instead of three... Uncle Das had to work... my kuzzy Ena is in adelaide...my kuzzy Nuar had a soccer match...my kuzzy izad is M.I.A.
bluergh! but nevertheless the show must go on.... we stay loyal to swensen's ice cream cake...my fav! Mango icecream cake!!
A hot Sunday it is!
Dearest came down late as he need plenty of rest after the flight from Taiwan.
But thats not normal for us too! i just realized that my family depended too much on dzul that we felt lost without him!
Every year he would be there when we ferst book in till the end..
I thott maybe this year dad could try to start the bbq goin!! hehehe!! bluergh ! instead he ask; where is Dzul?? is he coming?
my dearest was like the man of the match!! he practically bbq all the chiqens for everyone!! despite how hard my mum and i tried to stop him and ask him to rest!
Bee oms ab sean sally indra shahed came to enjoy some Force-rized bbq chiqens.

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the 'once in the blue moon' night.....

the sky was clear, i was enjoying the comfort of the night
trying to press my eyelids together...
suddenly the rain stormed out without a warning...
a warning maybe that came too late...
when everything started to get soaked
i started to choked ...
am i hallucinating? or am i dreaming... every seems to run like a roller coaster!
it's like as if my life was changed into a fast forward mode...i practically couldnt breathe
all i could feel was my dearest touch and his voice which was very soft that i could hardly hear!
i just want to switch off...period.

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post-effect

I cant seem to get it out of my mind!

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Happy 55th month anniversary baby!
21.11.00

love u lots and lots never none....

"i love him! i love him! i love him for the man that he wants to be
and i love him for the man that he almost is! i love him!"

2005-06-22T13:05:00.000-07:00

my the other half...

he came back on SUnday morning, his plane touches his homeland base at 3.30am
i reached the airport at close to 330 thanks to my kuzzy Alfie who takes the trouble to drive my dad's car so that i can fetch my honey , despite the fact that he has to work at 8am.
I was waiting at the arrival hall together with all the other anxious mums, dads, and gurlfrens..
as i was waiting, the first batch of souljahs were strolling out one by one. I see lots of hugs and kisses... eyes tightly closed, arms strongly gripped ....

Waiting was dreadful....
till this very moment where he appeared out of no where... it's HIM! i told my inner self. Saw him waving his hands that i yearn to touch!
Finally he walked out towards me...he gave me the hug that i deserve....i throw my arms around him and bury my face in his neck!

finally my other half is back in my arms...!
makes me feel complete all over again!

2005-06-21T23:38:00.000-07:00

G E N T A R A S A 05

18th June 05
Kallang theater
8pm

i got no comment ... the show breaks all barrier, and prolly bring our arena to another level.
i just have to say that i'm so proud of Sarimah and Suhaila the two dancers who represents cairnhill c.c.!
They were simply wonderful.....! and i was mesmerized by their performance...

for more write ups on the show, u can visit www.srimahligai.com

2005-06-13T01:18:00.000-07:00

worse weekend of my life...... with a touch of spice

:::::::::fAbOLouS KARMA:::::::::
Initially i step on the right note....but as soon as the bad karma gets over the good karma my notes went tumbling down....
wat tune was i playing?........

...'all my life i pray for sumone like you......' S-U-R-P-R-I-S-E...!!

It was Sean private-surprise bday party...carefully plan by his ever-so-wonderful gurlfren ABBY.
Venue: Gallerie Hotel (ya i noe cocco, moloko, Liquid room all under one roof)
Drinks were in the right place....cake was looking good with lighted candles... cream puffs was heavenly thanks to Abby's mum... and tea-lights were place strategically...All sean frens were invited including myself bee oms and linda....
At 9-ish when AB buzz us , we switch off all the lights , light all the tea lights, spray the room with uh?? i also forgot wat was that hehehe! (Beeha was incharge of that!) light the cake standby the music via laptop ... and the most important item ...is to leave the eye cover (or watever it is called!) at the door for sean to cover his eyes .
Sound quite simple right? with many hands things can be done!
BUT hahaha! the kecohness was madness... AB buzz and gave us 5 min...
everthing else ok except for the laptop...!!! we dun have abby's password
my blurness slows it down even more!
since we off all the lights we had hard time punching ab's password which is super long...we had to try it 3 times! then we even had hard time choosing which song to play!! Is it gonna be Azyet Lastnite...Angels...peterpan!! gosh!!!
thank god we finally agreed on All my life Kci & JoJo!
the best laugh i had waS when sabrina suddenly become....hmmmp....
N-O-T S-A-B-B-Y
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first laugh:::

Natalia: Let's take the cake out of the box and light it...
Sabby: Eh asal ada 'bawang' on the cake!

**fact: its not bawang Miss Sabby... its a cake decoration which can be eaten!!

2nd laugh:::

Sabby found a small key ... u know those really small key for small locks....

Sabby: eh its the door key! how abby gonna bring sean in??
everybody: starts laughing!!! muahahaha...
....i was holding the cake mind you!

**fact: how can a hotel like this have this kind of key!!! by now most hotel uses a card...
even if they still use a key it wouldnt be that small!!!

asal eh Miss Sabby sunddenly Miss Sabby so blur like sotong!
is it because she haven seen Fariq for 2 weeks?
Or is it because she is wearing a cute red dress....
these will remain as mystery untill Miss Sabby decides to reveal.....muahahaha!!!

it was a great laugh to kill the intensity while waiting to surprise...
Sabby sabby, cute la awak !!

So everybody quieten down then Sean's voice heard...ahhh
We heard AB persuading Sean to cover his eyes and to go in the room blindfolded... (Sean nak suruh masuk bilik pun susah!! takut kena rape eh!!muahaha!)

finally the door is opened..

Sean : Asal bau rokok ni?
Ab: tadi i hisap la!
**everybody is trying so hard not to laugh!!

then the music is on...he walks in ....uncover his eye mask.... S-U-R-P-R-I-S-E!
he was shocked of coz!!

everything went on well .... sean smile was the purest that day...
Ab was glad that Sean is happy...

::::Yup that was my fri! u guys should try Gallerie hotel..... the pool is superb, Sabby and Abby are lovin' it!
Maybe we can try to have a party up on the pool area!!....all guests are bikini clad..
some maybe half naked...to advertise their love handles (ohhh i so love to oogle on cute guys love handles!! and of coz my bf love handles are the best!!)

:::::::BAD KARMA::::::::
Started the weekend good but Saturday and Sunday was a nightmare....

wokeup near midday... bath ate stoned
watched Sembilu 2005 it was ok but i fine it too short for a love story!!
A love story cant be just 1 hr 45 min!! a minimum of 2 and 1/2 hrs at least!
nevertheless it suck! but i kinda like Vince...hmm quite cute!

sat infront of my comp. aimlessly surfing...
Chat with Jun for awile...

cant take it... i felt so the gelisah....went out...did a bit of retail therapy...
As i was on my way to Orchard.. in the train ... suddenly reality bangs me with a harsh fact... i soon realize that i'm surrounded by couples... in front of me theres 3 , and on my row ...i'm sandwiched between 2 couple... all the gf's are prettily doll up clinging onto their bfs... with hands on each others lap ... surprise kisses every now and then... i'm not irritated by that.... i just wish that my bf is here....
I'm prettily doll up too but no bf to cling on....dear meeesshh u so much

i started to cry i dunno why .... thanks to my shades .... everything was well hidden...
my heart was beating very fast!
I keep telling myself....that its gonna be a week more but .......................

had practice at cairnhill that night.... lotz of catching up to do ....since i've been missing lotz of weekend practices... very tiring.... body felt very weak....

after all the jumping twirling shaking kneeling sweating session... i and Farida head to Starbucks Orchard B.
Sunday was my dance practice again...arrgghh..

that's it? that was my weekend??
wat de hell....

2005-06-10T16:29:00.000-07:00

in love with me?

Leo is the fixed fire sign. Think contained flames. Like a campfire that needs constant attention to keep alive and warm. There is a deep love for life and all of its possibilities...including its luxuries and that love transfers over beautifullyinto how a Leo expresses their feelings. Love with a Leo is like a magnificent encounter with the sun. They are warm and supportive when their heart is given and their affections grow stronger the more they feel that their partners care about them and adore them in return.Leo's are dramatically romantic and not afraid to show it.They enjoy pulling their loved ones out into their world and radiate when they feel their partners compliment some quality about themselves. Love becomes a thing of luxury and the partner receives the abundance of their personal Leo's attention, lust and emotions. Because Leo's judge themselves on what they have around them (hence their love of luxury) they can be too appearance conscious at times and too critical of a mates qualities, appearance or talents. Because they truly need constant input to maintain their vitality they can sometimes become self-serving...occasionally to a point that it becomes egotistical. You'll find that love with a Leo is like no other love...and when they decide to give you their heart....they also give you every inch of their soul. In this lies the Leo vulnerability....when their trust is broken they crumble. They, again, base their own self judgements on those they adore. Take away the loved one...and you've taken away their own identity in many ways. When Leos feel let down (and it usually takes a great deal) they either fall into an abyss of pain and depression..or they get utterly cold and without feeling. The lion in protective mode.

still in love with me?

2005-06-09T22:46:00.000-07:00

my shopping ends here........or so i said....
a tribute to faithful GSS-ians

Before i start working in an office environment... i remember that June has always been an extra work for me as i have to entertain kiasu singaporeans that actually took a few days mc to be part of GSS ..ah get real!...to be the first in the queue during GSS more like it....

At ferst i tot only female species were intrested in sale...but to my surprise even my honey is so into GSS hahaha!! but too bad he is in taiwan so i'm doing the shopping for him...so baby u better shopp for me ya...during your R&R at taiwan!!

Top shop did a great makeover ... i lioke ... to all who went for the launch on last friday..... it was like girls-meet-girls session!!haha!!
i remember the last private sale that topshop had.... me and dzul was a great tag team!! we dun spend hours queing for dressing room or to pay our purchase...!!!we simply survive GSS commotions!
but aarrgghhh too bad this year GSS my comrade is in Taiwan!
Cant wait for this coming Mango sale! needless to say...........I NEED MY BF!!

ha ha! i tot my shopping would end but need i say more! my list of *things to buy is getting atrociously longer by day or shud i say by seconds...

mum is very happy with her tiffany earring that i bought for her....
i still got it for her even though the price increase !!!....
chey ! bluergh!
all just for you mum as long as put on that million dollar smile i dun mind spending it on you... even a million Louis cant stand on par with wat you have sacrifice for me...

my dearest dun worry i'll get that for you k baby! even though if i have to eat grass for the rest of the month!

Lets go shopping....!! it helps to stabalize the economy...so lets do our part for the nation!
men fight in defence!
women shop to stabilize!

2005-06-08T17:58:00.000-07:00

:::::::blogging:::::::

As of today , excluding this entry, i have shared 124 bits of my life since 12th April 2004.... purely coincidence....

thanks to my dearest kuzzin who influence me with her blog...... i started out as a complete bozzo... i knew nothing about html codes... i knew nutz.... infact i use to hate it while in poly...
thanks to my kuzzy who present me my first blog...i requested for a pinky blog... so she actually build it for me before she left for adelaide....

from that first pink blog i spend countless sleepless night doing trial and error .... and in fact when i post my ferst entry on 12/4/04, my next one was in june....i spend two months to actually build my own blog and understanding the html codes.... my results were shown on my fairy blog! i was impressed with myself!!

i guess i find the joy in doing this...
and blogging gave me a reason to work on my adobe P techniques....

124 episodes already! and more to come....
on "Days of my Life"

2005-06-07T18:57:00.000-07:00

Dear aunt farah,

Thank you for replying my letter,
i feel much better now...
And to make things worse i'm not
gonna get to even talk to him till
Sunday cause he is gonna be outfield...
I decided to keep myself busy by attending
all my dance practices faithfully and
exercise retail therapy as and when i like it...
but i'm almost zombified and damage done to
my cards are so outrageous.... that i might have
to eat up Sabby...for the rest of the month...
and maybe a bit of beeha and ab for seosoning...
What should i do??

Yours truly,
Sad Leo

(p/s: muahahahamuahahahahaha)

2005-06-06T22:14:00.000-07:00

Just give me my honey!! my darling ... my sugar....

Dearest baby i meesh you so....everytime i feel this way i keep thinking about farah.... you are so strong in handling your fondering heart ... no matter how far both of u are.... wats my 3 weeks compare to yours.... if you can do it why cant i!!!

why i feel so sad and why do i miss him so terribly....

2005-06-02T13:59:00.000-07:00

my heart aches like hell.... (no not bout dzul)
i just felt like i'm in a roller coaster!
a simple apology could have save the day but .... the decider chose not to...
wats life without compassion...
wats life without sensitivity...
wats life without dignity...

wats wrong with human mindset...
everybody hates everybody...
again for the second time in my blogging history i'm penning down issues on miscommunication....
i detest that word!
hate it!

a simple apology was traded for a childish and uncalled for ultimatum
'to die or to live'

a gap i wish it was far more smaller than what it is now...

A typical miscommunication that desires no end...

why do i feel the ache?

maybe its not the time yet....not riped to understand or feel wat one feels for the other.....

a wish that i kept for everything to be fine is still not yet 'approved' by god...
maybe time will reveal...
how long... i cant keep on waiting....
hatred is a harsh word and i never use it against a human being.... never in my life...

but i was accused using it? why? cant justice be prevailed?
was i really bad?? all i asked for was respect and honesty...
i'm no angel neither am i a saint... i have flaws too...
words might have been said that kills you down the throat without me realizing it...
but understanding it would have done it!

our interpretation might differ in one way or another ....but hatred ... definitely not in my dictionary....

i shall wait for time to heal ... one day evrything would be fine when you are forced to be in my shoes...

i was handed the most tricky task .... a task that last a lifetime... a task that will never be over... completed... maybe... failure ....possible....but it will never end..

i still keep this wish which i've kept since i dun even remember when!
but i'll still hold on till its approved....

i need my guardian angel... i need her to help me go thru this heartache of mine!
i lost her when i was growing up...
dun be scared i'm not crazy...
some ppl has imaginary friend...
and i'm one of them...
and i miss this fren of mind..
she use to appear in my head..
but she was gone as soon as Dzul entered my life....

i'm really crappy now....
i'm sad and i wish dzul or ida is here....

a letter to the one who thinks i hate him

i wish one day you would understand...
i never hate you...never once
how can i?
i might be harsh cause its my task and its for your own good...
Never in 15 yrs have i ever hated you in any way...
Anger was there ... Pissed was there ... Disappointed was there... but Hatred was never there... it will never be there....
Maybe you dont understand why i did it ... maybe you thought wrong... but i still wish honesty was part of our life together... never did i ever feel like casting you out...
but i know u'll never understand....
my heart aches when you said that ...
my heart aches when u make accusation....
my heart aches when u dun understand how i feel...

Just remember one thing i will never trade the r'ship...
One day You'll understand ...
For now... lets do it your way... i respect yur decision...

2005-05-31T08:16:00.000-07:00

meesshhh my darl' ....

Yup my baby has left for Taiwan....
And i'm gonna be lonely for three weeks....

i have no desire to blog at the moment cause ........ bluergh! i myself dunch know why..
All i'm left with for three weeks are my exams my dance practices my gurls and pictures of my darl' ....
love u honey!.... miss u already!
20 days to go!
sounds like 20 yrs! it feels like the ferst time u r being enlisted!

itsumo aishteru

2005-05-23T21:09:00.000-07:00

2005-05-23T21:03:00.000-07:00

2005-05-21T11:59:00.000-07:00

Happy 54th month dearest
lets walk down the memory lane...our past snapshots

Today is my 54th month

love you dearest.... always will always do...
even though sumtimes i complain lots bout your inperfections i love u still....
i know i'm hard to please and my expectations are just too high... but hey!
we've gone this far !
by dearest dun like to talk but he talks alot bout' his army...that's the irony of communication..
i can talk on and on for and hour but he'll just put his two cent worth for 5 min max...
but i love u still....
my dearest i didnt ask for card i didnt ask for a diamond ...
all i ask is for you to learn
to be more like a lover not anything less....
but i love you still....

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Yesterday Iskhandar changes his status from single to married....
i'm so happy for him!
I can't believe he is getting married but i'm glad he's a change man!
He is so ready to be married! he was so nervous the night before! but who can he blame! i told him that it looks like that night will be our last time chatting on msn.....hehehe!! i believe that its not nice to chat with a married man!
I wish you and Lin to an everlasting journey together full of love and lifes!
So i guess you will have a junior football team by the time i decide to get married??!! hehehe!

Going to Is wedding laterz...hmmm stil thinking of wat to wear!!
and later gotta run ard looking for prezzies! yes ! i haven't buy anything!! and i dunno wat to buy!!

lets have a blasting weekend!! Cocco? Zouk?

2005-05-19T11:17:00.000-07:00

nights off...
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later i might have to rush to boonlay to meet dzul... apparently he got the nights off for a few hours...
i'm torn apart! today got my indon drama at 930! how ??? so is it Dzul or Ari wibowo!!!
the plot is getting more and more exciting!!
But i wanna meet dzul too!
aarrgghhh!

i want to watch Star Wars!! met akbar yesterday when i was in the way home... he ask me whether want to watch cause the whole group wanna watch together this sat.... but i bet the tickets are fully book!!! aaarrgghh!! hopefully can get tickets !!

today gonna lunch alone cause sabby went to meet her clients.... still dunno wat to do during lunch..maybe go look for farid's prezzies.. or maybe go gelare... hehe! sabby is so gonna kill me if i were to go w/o her!!!

So how?!!
Ari wibowo or Dzulkarnain!!!

2005-05-18T17:40:00.000-07:00

::::::::::::CAUTION:::::::::::

this entry was written in the state of unstableness...

the joy of waking up late and slacking at coffee house are over.
i had no time to write since my last entry.... or should i say no
inspiration to blog. My head was cramped with overloading
ideas for my thesis topic. I just realized that sumtimes having
too much ideas could be a disaster...suddenly the ideas are jumbled
in a big thinking jar.
I spent the whole week contemplating on which topic should i bitch
about.. i think i change like almost 5 times!!
finally yesternite i got my final proposal done!
Thesis title: Branding in the Fashion Industry - LV vs Gucci
personal favourite LV of course !!
haikz but u'll never knowGucci might turn to be the better one!
Come and check with me this november to determine who is the
Top player in the fashion Industry!

Maybe i should just open my own brand name too ya! ::: Natalia :::
Woud you guys be intrested?? haha!! maybe in 20 years time evrybody
will go gugu-gaga over Natalia's merchandise hehehe!!! hold that thought!!

My darling fruitheart is going to Taiwan next week! gosh i'm gonna be
Miss Lonely!!

This friday is FArid's bday.... i'm still thinking of wat to buy for him!!
a house? a car? muahahaha!!
maybe i shall buy him a gurlfren!! i wonder if he is still single ! (jgn marah ye abg farid)
This friday will be meeting him i guess....maybe clubbing too...so any takers??
:::::::::Gurls wanted::::::::::
Perfect vital statistic .....muahahaha!!!
Adorable

Gosh i am really crappy today !! i'm spouting nonsense!
Its freezing cold here in the office! I'm taking a break from work to write this entry!
later got practice....but currently time pass freakingly slow!

now is just 1719 pm... let me babble you thru my weekend...
hmmm....fri i was at starbucks again...supposedly dzul were to book out early and meet me
at 6pm...but he sort of like stood me up!! blame the army! but thanks to a group of young boys who are crazy over abby ... i was accompanied from 6pm till 9pm.

i love sat cause i dun need to wake up at 7! i slept thru the morning ... had late breakfast with
dzul then he head home to change...
Met again in town .... shop shop till we drop eh no no... till he drop! hehhe!! my turn have yet to come! u'll hear about my retail rambles next month! June is a sale month!!

oh ya this sat is Iskhandar's wedding!! Congrats to both of them!! i wish you both to an everlasting love! looking forward to your wedding!!

Daphne and JO pls take care of yourself in Bintan! i wish i could join you but my money i wanna save for my LV bag muahahaha!!!! :P .... dun play around too much ah!! Dunch be too wasted ya!! drink can drink dance also can... flirt lagi best....but still must maintain the glam look k! muahahaha! see ya guys back in cocco when u r back! Miss Teri pls make up your mind whether you are into clubbling or not! wen we ask you ...you say u dun club... when we dun ask you ....you say why never ask you along! "ape cakap ni" nanti kalau WAN dah nak khawin you...da tak bleh pegi! join eh next meeting!

ok la i shall now finish up my work ....
(i just remembered that its high time for me to change my blog skin!! aarrgghh!)
love to all who loves me!

2005-05-09T23:53:00.000-07:00

miss me or not???
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i started working already!! can u believe it? Natalia who hates working is now working!!
i'm sorry to all my faithful readers ..... make u guys keep reading old entries! i'm still trying to adapt myself to wake up at 7! Anyway let me fill you guys in .....

valorian
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Started my job on wednesday... part of the reason i like the job its because of the location...Liat towers baby! shopping!!! i get to exercise my retail therapy as much as i want! one hour lunch break is gonna cause me a bomb man! Even my bf is afraid of leaving his card with me while he is in camp hehheee!! another reason is Sabby is my dearest colleague!! heheheee!!! Beeha and Abby insisted that i had a new-found gf !!! heheheee!!! So starbucks liat became even more convenient now!! hehehheee! i'm borned to be near Starbucks!

Saturday 7th May 05
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suppose to wake up at 6 i end up waking up at 7!!! i was late!! interview is at 845am!
Yes i'm going for another interview despite my current job cause this interview was arranged even before i got this current job!! but i didnt get the job anyway.... haikz they got sumone better i guess!
That saturday was super HOT!! it was 10 am when my interview ended! freakingly Hot! the thought of travelling back to home then back to dzul's was crazy and simply impossible!!! so i headed back to dzul's ... he's not home yet still in camp.... the rest of his fam is home. Chatted for awhile with his sisters and parents then i headed to his room to sleep!!i was pretty sleepy ! that i slept through the afternoon till honey came back at 3 plus.... i was lying too comfortably that i didnt feel like waking up !! like a lazy bum i woke up and lunch was served! aarrgghh! i slept and i didnt help a thang! i very malu you know! i slept instead of helping my 'hopefully-future-mother-in-law' and i woke up just to eat .... bluergh!! how to marry her son! hehehehe!!!
We headed to town to meet my precious chio boos....
Shopping for mothers' day prezzies.....my mum prezzie had to wait cause the stock will only arrive in two weeks time... i thought of getting a different thing but i noe she'd prefer tiffany! i mean who dont!!
Starbucks to end retail therapy!
we sat with fariz , fizi, acapz and the rest .....played bluff with one deck and 11 ppl playing!!
went off early at 11 cause the guys going HRC, bee:::oms going for a movie... abby went back early ...
baybeh went home with me to woodlands... cause Sunday he'll be called in ard noon. i love u baby! so fast u have to book in already ... oh ya Dzul and i would like to wish Jun a Hapy Birthday
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Mother's Day
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its here again! Happy Mother's day to my Mummy !!!
We had our annual Mom's day gathering at aunt erry's house.... we never fail to gather on mother's day! And every year celebrate 3 joyous occasion on the same day mother's day, my mom's bday and aunt erry and uncle rahim's anni!
all the mums took a break.... no cooking and no messing up...... all the dads ordered catered food to enjoy the gathering without having the mums to cook!
too bad my kuzzin ena not here! this is the second time she missed mothers day !
All the mums cut cakes and open prezzies..... hmmm my mum got tiffany's twice in a row !!! last yr and this yr!! dad bought her an early bday prezzies. Yes she finally got the same ring as me the Mesh series! bluergh! And i'm gonna get her sumthin that compliments the ring ! i'll show u guys the picture once the stock comes !

Oyasumi nasai

2005-05-02T23:25:00.000-07:00

unplanned labour reunion...love this guys ....

2005-05-02T12:23:00.000-07:00

speak of the devil!

on may day , honey, bee and two of our poly mates, rudy and didi and me went to sentosa! i didn't suntan though! i had to keep my face in the same shade for my upcoming interview. sentosa was great....reminising past poly life....how all of us first met! but later in the evening it just had to rain! but didnt spoil the evening though. it wasnt heavy so we just sat on the bench by the beach ignoring the rain. Finally the rain stop! we had our last swim and then we tried to check out the beach club! KM8. its the dopest club! its the only place that you can find me in bikini with my bling bling, chains and tiffany's .... and my hair made up and my make up stick on! That's the place to find lambo's owners, ferrari drivers and covertibles autos! The ladies are all clad with gucci, christian dior, LV, channel bikinis... LV scarfs....tiffany chains...channels shades... u name it! booze flowing all over! those who still needs to have their feet on the sands....chill at the out door.....lots cute puppies and dogs...u'll find lots of mingling and snuggling! hehe! on the inside ...are those who are all fully made up and prefer clorinated water then sea water...comfy white sofas with blue pool in the centre! the dj pumping great mix of songs! that brought in the moon beautifully!
but the club was restricted yesterday to invited guests only due to May day function.
We headed down to bk liat to have our dinner..
while eating...yusry and gf, hafiz, abad, arif and gf came.... all of us was like!!! what is this!!!???
we shift to a longer table to chat and catch up on things! a few moments later Azril and his wife came!!! hahaha!!! we were just talking bout the techno days reservoir days ....!!
THen followed by Zakir the Wan pelik! Most of us were there! its like a unplanned reunion! A coming reunion is calling for a plan!!! aaarrrgghh!!!
These are the people who went through poly days with me!
in alphabetical order hehehe!! AB,Arip,Azmi,Azril,Bee,Didi,Dzulkarnain,Hafiz jiggy, Hafiz, Iskhandar, Kasmilah, Rudy,Wan Cin, Wan Pelik, Yusry,Zakir,Zulkaisi.....did i miss anyone??!! hehehe! These are the people who made my poly days a memorable one! imagine each of us get hold of each others timetable...so we know who to call at the right time!! i think i remembered doing my own timetable of their break times and free times! but at the end of the day either we at techno or starbucks tamp...
14th may our so called reunion party! either KM8 or Cocco!

2005-04-30T01:50:00.000-07:00

Pentas 29.04.05

The annual show Pentas, a tradition never fails to be continued generation after generation. Even the name has not been change! Pentas:::: a platform to showcase hidden individual talents.

This year the chairman is Amin, he is also the artistic director. Thumbs up Amin! Every year without fail Pentas showcase the 7 subgroup that makes up Malay Arts Group. Each year with its own uniqueness. This year its "Pentas Wayang".

I reached TP late evening an hour before the curtain opens. As i enter the backstage, i could feel the anxiety and the excitement of each performers. Reminds me when i had my chance to feel that priceless feeling!

An hour before curtain call as usual, Panjy boys still chilling outside their dressing room, still half dressed, at another alley are the dikir girls, who never stops practicing, i guess thats to kill nervousness. Then as i entered the same dressing room that i've been entering for 3 years, i felt as if i'm back! but NOT dancing! the kecoh-ness was nothing different, every year SNT dressing room is the most kecoh room! i lioke! cause it brings the momentum going! all the girls are 99% ready! all cantek-cantek! haikz ! looking at them makes me feel i cant be inside the room if i'm not dressed in kebaya fitted with sanggul and cemara! i was too excited that i forgot all about taking pictures!!! muahahaha!

The show was great! the dancers dance gracefully not forgetting their million dollars smile!, drama was hilarious, i was shocked that they did cross dressing, because during the open house the lecturers dissaprove the students idea of having a crossdresser as the model for their fashion show....hmmm ....nevertheless watak "mak ayam" was a bingo!

Aniwaz Nyira improved! i wish beeha was there performing! hehehe! i kinda like to see her sing!(it doesnt mean i dun like the current one!), sohib nur salam still in the bollywood season!! panjy sri temasek..ala ala penyamun..what can i say ... they never fail to make dikir barat more fun and more different than a traditional performance. 'otak mereka-mereka ni sungguh geliga'....i never thought i could hear Oye mi canto and i'm so confused on the pentas stage by the Dikir boys! oh gosh....true enuf' they are talented! or i would normally say they have creativity!

Kudos to Pentas 2005 committee members are those involve...

i cant wait for Pentas 2006!

2005-04-28T21:53:00.000-07:00

this range is available in singapore already!!!!!!! i'm so desperate!!! i want this range!!! can a kind soul buy it for me?? DAD? Honey Baby?? Love Ones? anybody who loves me?? my bday still very far eh!! i cant wait till then!! i want it right now!!! plsssshhh!!!! "Dear God, i wish to have this, can u think of a way so that i could get this bag??"

2005-04-28T00:21:00.000-07:00

i miss school can i rewind back the time??

had dance practice just now....very tired ah today! my leg is aching!
today i didnt manage to chat with honeylicious....cause he is so busy!
Why must the army give him so much work?!!!
i meesh him to the max!
its already bad enuf' that i only get to see him only in the weekends...now they want to take him away to taiwan for 21 days! Are they crazy! i'm gonna go bonkers!

This Friday is TP's Pentas showcase, and i cant wait to go!
I still remember 2yrs back when i was the chairman for the show....damn stressful...
i guess i'm the first Chairman they had that was so lazy to attend meetings! haahahaha!!
But i had fun and those memories are the beautiful ones that i shall cherished to be remembered at the point of reminising.
Rewinding back to my time .... these week will be the most stressfull, sleepless and tiring week for those who are involve....Beeha will be rehearsing and crying at the same time!hehee! AB will practice last minute cause she always fail to attend practices and she'll go on rambling (till today!) that i caused the visible bruise on her knees! haha!! i had fun choreographing with my batch of dancers ! Their level of tolerance is priceless!!
i wish my days in TP could be prolong! sumtimes i hate myself for passing my finals! hehehe!
SKipping lectures to go to techno was one of the major activities that i miss!! going to reservoir to kill mosquitoes! studying in the library! i miss hockey! i miss climbing ItAS gate at night. skipping useless lectures to watch that Pontianak movie in the middle of the day!!i miss taking 168 ... nuff' said ::::: I miss SCHOOL! i dun wanna work! i just want to be a student! I'm so blessed with many frens who went thru thick and thin with me during my poly days! Rushing for deadlines to the very last minute was the norm....i miss 1st avenue :::: i miss Glitz....
And i thank god that i had my honeylicious during poly! he was ::my friend ::my punching bag (hehehe!)::my boyfren ::my buddy and ::my love!

2005-04-27T02:09:00.000-07:00

countless essays!!

just came back from coffee bean bishan ...met up with bee and hafiz. went to khatib gym before that till 7 plus then sat at CB from 8 doing my essay manually cause i'm tired of facing the comp. i noe its double work but wat da F. did my essay on reproductive controls till 10 then bee and hafiz reach. Bee had practical yea she and abby passed and got to move to the next one! Cant wait for my final theory!can u believe it this is my forth or fifth time trying! am i that stupid!! i'm confident that i did it good but i still fail wat da hell!
cant wait to get my license !!

i spent this week reading about women and the world. it saddens when reality hits me that women are being treated unfairly. Women don't even have the right to their own body!! Husbands and government are their decider! Wat da hell!
If i'm the ruler i will make all men take up women studies! haha! ofcoz it wun happen ah..
Well i guess i'm found the topic that i like....i shall put these topic as one of my choice for my coming thesis.

i'm approaching to the end of my Women and the world module...its fun i tell you! so wat r u waiting for!! take up liberal arts! makes u a better person!
but writing essays.... not FUN! my eyes rolling, my fingers crumbling, my body is filled with caffeines....nails are chipping! and now i can't do french cause my nails too short aarrgghh!!....................
gonna finish my japanese class already...i wish to take the next one..aarrggh hopefully dad can pay for me again!!

Dad is now at Peninsula outlet, very stress ah he....pity him... stress because boss office upstairs ...hehehe! i told melanie, my dad no need to take diploma to major in retail mgt to do what i was taught to do! isnt that great! i guess i got it from my dad, runs in the genes, learn from the best! Dad display skill also not bad...got theory...hehe! he got no lecturer i got plenty!
If i cant earn like my dad i better dump my degree!

i portray myself as a fine example of a paper chaser. i dwell myself in this chase till i forgot what i was mould for. i'm not regreting...this was wat i laid out when i was 15 ...everything went smoothly except for my career. i want build a money making empire...possible? that was my dream ofcourse... tried to change into goals but looking very cloudy.... it is blocked by a strong factor. ahh..i'll talk about this another day..cause its dampening my mood! and i cant afford to do dat cause i still gotta finish my final essay.

i meesh my baby!!! lup u deep deep:::
cant wait to get a hug from you!!:::
'A hug' are u kidding!!! plenty of that plssshh:::

2005-04-25T09:19:00.000-07:00

Natalia :: Jo :: Daphne

my weekend at a glance.....

fri was a starbuck day.... i was craving for slice fish beehoon soup hehehe!! so before we head for starbucks liat we ate dinner.
Bee was not satisfied with the service rendered by REDS ...hahaha... anyway bee u still look good!! serious!
baybeh and his frens are heading to Zouk. Yes u heard me right ....he is going without me! ANd i couldnt care less!
When we were still in school, it was so difficult to club with him!!! he said he'll never be an avid clubber! And now who is eating their own words!!
Now he goes clubbing almost every week!! and yes most of it without me!
nuff' said .....
i headed home with beeha after our "board meeting" at starbucks liat.
yes i'm officially bored.... and as many would have guess it....Yes i finish the 40 disc korean drama series by fri nite!! not bad ! took me 4 days !
baby called and said he''l be coming back to woodlands ...so i waited.....waited till i'm so blardy tired....baybeh reached home at close to 5 am...
And the best thing is that when he reached my place i cant sleep!! he ended up sleeping and i ended up watching my korean drama!! wat da hell!
at bout 8 i went out for a jog...wat a beautiful sat morning!
Baybey and i had brunch then he went home to change.... thot of following him home....but arrrgh i need to catch some sleep first....
i slept through the afternoon till evening .... just nice...had a cooling salt bath .... spend ample time on my dressing table...did justice to my face....i thot a dark socket would satisfy me for tonight .. treat my hair to wat its worth... and voila!!! ready to party!
Met Bee and Oms at BK liat....
Bee on standby so we are like crossing our finger hoping that she'll not get called up!
while passing time and munching.... two of my fav guys who i've missed so much was there too!! zulkaisi and didi!!....one just need one night to pass POA while his frens took 6 mths to learn it... another is a genius...sounds like a nerd? nah they are not! u wont even believe it!
clocks ticking chicks flowing ....time to roll!!!
at cocco.... met up with daphne and Jo der...i so miss them!! i'm glad that they could join me at cocco! we end up taking lots and lots of pictures!! cause that wat we love to do!! sNapShoTs!!
Dzul camp frens were there too...Sabby, Ruzi, Fariq and frens were there too...too bad Abby and Seanny couldnt make it!!
cranberries flowing music pumping....causing us to Lean back on the couch!
nah we are clean and sober.... we are family oriented ppl u know! muahahaha!!hahahaa
bring me a pint of stella !
Sheihk was der too... eh Sheihk u hot la boleh kenal2?? hehehe!!
Je'taime !!!

Cocco baby i miss u already how eh?

2005-04-21T23:59:00.000-07:00

53 great months.. loving you ....

53 months ago .... the man who is standing beside me now, stole my heart. For that he was sentenced to love me forever and never can he let me go. He is my precious organ that i need to continue living in this lifetime.
We went through thick and thin together and i'm glad u held my hand along the way.

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My bet with Love

I never thought love could be this great
I never thought this could be my fate
Tears were shed Laughters were shared
and it all started with a bet!

A bet i never knew that could have won me a lifetime
A bet i never knew that could promise me a future
A bet that i took with no regrets
And it cost me my heart

we are the epitome of love negligence
but we survived it..

I bet that
my love is your love
and your love is my love
i bet that
your heart is mine to keep
and my heart is yours to keep..

wanna bet?

happy 53rd month anniversary!
lots of love to shower you till eternity.....

2005-04-19T09:45:00.000-07:00

:::::All the boys, boys on the verge of manhood, committed boyfriends, engaged males
TAKE NOTE!!
i was browsing and i came across this....
and i would LOVE if
my bf
my brother
my gurls bf
my gurls fiancee
my gurls admirers
were to read this.......

:::::when your darling girl cries::::::

If a girl cries in front of u,
it means that she cannot takeit anymore.
If u take her hand,
she will stay with u for the rest of ur life;
If u let her go, she cannot go back to
being herself anymore.

A gal won't cry easily,
except in front of the person
whom sheloves the most,
then she becomes weak.

A gal won't cry easily,
only when she loves u the most,
she puts down her ego.

Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of u,
please hold her hands firmly,
coz she's the one who is willing to stay
with u for the rest of ur life.

Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of u,
please don't give her up,
maybe bcoz of ur decision,
u ruin her life.

When she cries rite in front of u,
When she cries bcoz of u,
Look into her eyes,
Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?
Think.

Which other girl has cried with pure
sincerity,In front of u,And bcoz of u?

She cries not because she is weak,
She cries not bcoz she wants sympathy or pity.
She cries,Because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt n agony have become too
big a burden to be kept inside.

Guys,Think about it,
If a gal cry her heart out to u,
And all because of u,
Its time to look back on what u have done,
only u will know the answer to it.

Do consider it,Coz one day,
it may be too late for regrets,
It may be too late to say "im sorry".

::::::::::-fin-::::::::::

2005-04-18T08:41:00.000-07:00

the sun the sand and the sea!!

i went to sentosa with baybeh and frens. There was 4 other girls and 15 guys!!
Ashik and Andee was der too! i miss my ashik kutcher!! u got to grow my fav hair back boy!!
Andee, baybeh and i was the last to reach! hehehe! wat to do! baybeh and i overslept! we even missed our sunday morning fav show, 7th heaven!
SUn was scorching hot! but baybeh and i didnt tan cause its too 'fun' to tan!! too bad the four girls didnt join when we were swimming and cracking jokes in the water. i end up being the only girl with 15 guys! there's this guy name shah, he was so funny!! he is short and cute and very friendly. he made us laugh every second!
5 of us swam to the stones....it was fun but tiring on the way back to the yellow cheese there was this moment while we were swimming my leg got stuck to a rope, baybeh was 10 metres away helping this guy who cant swim that well, Shah was about 5 metres away near the bouy and the rest was on the yellow cheese platform so technically i was alone. Shah couldnt help me cause he cant swim anymore after that trip to the stones. while i was treadding and trying to free myself this Shah has the cheek to make me laugh! and like duh! i laughed!!! almost cant control!! after much twirling i got freed !
That day was Shah an this guy name Ca-an's birthday....
Happy Birthday guys!
I love the sunset! i love the pictures that we took.....
Have to wait till this wed or thurs cause the Sony UsB wire with baybeh lah...cannot transfer the pics!!
After sentosa after sunset we headed down to Newton. BUt Newton darn packed! so we thot lets go beach road but then its already 830. So we decided to to to AA yishun hehehhe but then we took the wrong turn so we end up at Al ameen woodlands hahaha!!! good for me then!
Baybeh suddenly caught a cold. he looks very tired and he got to book in at 7 in the morning! poor baybeh keep sneezing ... i wish i could have done sumthin!
Wat a day !
looking foward for the next trip to sentosa with my gurlie girls!
And yes ! this week baybeh having a long weekend!! see u wed darling!!

2005-04-16T01:30:00.000-07:00

a lame friday again ?? i can't believe this!

Ab , Bee and their bfs are away holidaying in Bangkok! and they left me here alone by myself!
i could have gone if i'm working!! aarrgghh!!
I got angry at my sweetheart accidentally!! i dun even know what are we fighting for??!!!
well i guess i am pms-ing! he said that everytime he wants to go out with his boys i make noise! Well he always choose the bad time to go out with his boys!! i'm not against him going out with his boys!! i just dunno how to explain it to him!
Darn!
its friday nite and its 1am now and i'm here struggling to finish 5 essays!! arrgghh !! looks like while u guys are partying with booze! i'm here partying with caffeines!!
ANd the best thing is that i havent even start to revise my Japanese module this week!! And i'm angry at myself to have waste lots of my time doing my blog skin and be angry at bf!
knee still not improving ... tomoro is yet another day of practice practice practice!Nope i'm not in Genterasa but look out for adek and suhaila!
i hope there are going to be a lot of show trip this year!! give me another reason not to work!

p/s: dear sorry! love u much!

2005-04-12T21:50:00.000-07:00

its here again.......and i hate it!

its here again....where i start to feel that i'm a good for nothin'....aarrgghhh i hate this moment i hate this feeling!! its not as if i'm not doing anything!!!
i'm doing my dissertation ... my jap class is going to finish soon.....my liberal module is intresting...the only thing is that ....i'm turning 23 and i dun work!! I'm on my mum and dad's payroll. aaarrrgghhh!! it makes me feel useless when i dun have my own income!! And i feel very bad when i can't pamper myself and my bf!!! aarrgggh!! am i too choosy when looking for a job??? Yes i admit i hate werking ....if its possible i want to stay as a student!
What can i do?!!
i really dont know!!!
wat happen to my dreams that i've changed to my goals!!!
Why am i enjoying life at the expense of my love ones!!
i'm better than this ....i noe i am!!!
Sumtimes i wish i could just dance full time! is there such job 'for me' ??
is my coming degree going to be wasted?
And i'm sicked of sitting at home!!
time for me to join the work force! i got alot to offer !
Anybody want to hire me??!!!

2005-04-11T22:57:00.000-07:00

weekends......club hopping!!

i started my sat late went out at about 5 in the evening...
i had practice at 6 at cairnhill... my knee is not getting any better....
my leg are still aching!
Practice was great but my hair is annoying!!! usually i could just make a
clean bun and my hair won't hinder any movement i make...but now
i cant even tie my hair ...aarrgghh!!!
but of coz it doesnt curb my moods to dance that evening....
practice stretch to 10 plus...my choreographer wraps up with a discussion.
he reviewed our training. For an hour before we wrap up...he made us sit
as though we are going through yoga lessons, crossing our legs, both hands
on our lap and he played a tune that was written for the tsunami victims...
it was so sad! all i could think of was the aceh dancers!!
we have to move to what we hear....
He commented that i was too emotional .... and its very bad when i dance
using too much emotion. he said that i should feel it and i should not put in
emotions to my steps....oh well i'm a sensitive person!!! i can't help it!! i thought
it would make it better!!
Poor baby ....he has been waiting for me since 8 plus!!
When i'm done we quickly catch a cab to gallerie hotel... i was contemplating still
whether i shd club or not to..cause my gurls are flying!!aarrggh! but since baybeh
waited for me and i miss him alot i shall just go and make him happy!!!
On the way there i was on the line with abby who is feeling very down!! she keeps
on crying and crying! i wish i could be there for her! i hate to hear her cry, makes me
feel i'm not doing enough as her gurl!

"AB you are a strong GURL!!! among the four of us

you are the strongest!!Why arent you standing up!"

"Im your Girl, you're my girl, we your girls, wont you know that we love you"

Shahed, Andy and the rest were still not there so Dzul and i went in to Cocco ferst...

and i saw Sabrina! yea! got a fren there! She was with Fariq, seeanny and frens. So we chill

at cocco while waiting fer the rest...anyway azmi was spinning...

When Shahed and the rest arrive we headed up to Liquid Room..jam pack...mostly cinoneh

but better than China Black ah...

My gurls will be proud to know that i drank punch instead of stella hehehe!!!(" So how Bee you want to kiss me now?")

then headed down to Moloco where Seaanny , Fariq and frens....settling down on the comfy sofas with their booze...So baybeh and i join in! After we finished(u know la hah! i shoudn't say this to avoid Bee getting angry!) and after everybody pass the cranky test!! we headed back to cocco to dance!!! After having so much fun at cocco, Baybeh and i thought we should have some fun with Andy and the rest.... So we headed back up to Liquid Room...We are so ready to continue partying all night long!!! Gallerie Hotel is so happening!!!!

.....period....

Sunday

Baybeh is not booking in today..yea!

Today is a family day! Had lunch at Causeway point with the whole fam and baybeh....followed by a pool game ... didnt expect Dad to be quite good at it!! hehehehe!!

Went to town with Baybeh...just to chill at Starbucks !! hehehe! Ya crazy i know!

Monday

Went out with baybeh....

today i had a bad hair day...aarrrgghh!!!

and i got blisters wearing my diesel shoes!! wat a monday!!!

Had late lunch at BillyBombers then baybeh bought me a reef slippers so that i could change immediately!!! how thoughtful!! hehehe!!

Later in the evening he left me with the gurls cause he had to book in...

Met the girls at Rocky's .... and i was trying to tell them that i was angry!!! hehehe!!!

Yea because both of them took motorbike license without telling me!!! How can they not tell me!!! its not about the license its bout not telling me and stuff....

But they are so adorable how can i be mad at them right!! So now all the three of them...Ab, Bee and Rozi are taking bike license!!! oh migod!

i just feel that its dangerous for a lady to ride a bike!!

Then as usual every monday is my Jap class.......wat a day.......

Oyasumi nasai

2005-04-08T23:58:00.000-07:00

a friday that felt like a monday.....

Went to kelvin to re-do my hair...
cut 1 inch shorter....
meet up with alfie ... he is trimming his hair too...
i kinda miss my fruitheart .... he is in field camp
so i did not manage to talk to him this week...
chill out with ab, salem, alfie and sabrina at starbucks liat.
headed home when i really feel that my legs are aching...
i dunno wats wrong with my knee...i had problem dancing these few weeks
i can't lower my posture cause my knee is painful .
aaarrgghh!! how to survive with tomoro practice!!!!
i wish my knee is better tomoro!

2005-04-07T23:59:00.000-07:00

Singapore Youth Festivals

i just got back ..... legs are aching eyes are tired neck is stiffin' up!!
had a wonderful dinner just now after kallang at Nooch with din, rizal and hafiz.
After dinner we went for desert at starbucks, wonderful tiramisu
and a mocha frap to wrap up!
shikin and her frens were there too .... she invite us over to her table to watch 'entity'.
They plug in the speakers courtesy of starbucks and we all sat there together watching
that scary show!!

i had the most tiring week....
like sitting on kelvin's chair while he work some magic on my hair..
sitting on a secondary school chair .... blushing glitters and shades of purple on the Cranberra Secondary Sch girls...
waking up at 530 am rushing to Hai Sing Catholic to make 22 faces look artisticly in the moods of the Sahara desert.
Spent both wednesday and thursday at the kallang theatre and all those who incharge of make ups are so blardy tired that we fall asleep during the performance!!!
Everyone was commenting how they miss my curly hair, i kinda miss my curly hair too! Maybe i shoudnt have straighten my hair too soon!! i could have join the Loreal beyonce look alike contest!!
I was happy that Hai Sing Catholic got Gold for SYF although most of us predicted that they would get Gold with Honor.
Camiel's got silver for his two schools.
Ain got Gold with Honor for his two schools!!!
Riverside however havent move from silver since they first started to join SYF!! can you believe it!! hehehe! since my first SYF in 97' silver was all we got!!! but lucky we didnt drop to bronze or C.O.P.
Maybe i should try RSS when Nadya feels like quiting. I'm not good but i know i have something to offer! I miss my secondary sch! i miss dancing during sec sch. Girls hated me so much cause i always got selected!! muahahaha!! and they accused me of being a 'bootlicker' !! wat da hell! but i like it!!! i miss the 'drama' that happens everyday in sch! the misconceptions,miscommunications, scandals, betrayal, jealosy and sumtimes stupidity...!!

i shall end my ramblings now ..... and retire for bed...

Oyasumi nasai....

2005-04-05T10:06:00.000-07:00

My new hair!!!!!!! No more curly hair !!!!!

2005-03-31T09:09:00.000-08:00

:: Bagaikan Sakti
Siti Nurhaliza & M Nasir
OST from Puteri Gunung Ledang

Cinta datang
Tanpa diundang
Seumur masa tercipta

Dia datang bagai sakti
Bagai menyaksi mekar
Kembang pagi

Cinta datang
Dengan senyuman
Panasnya membakar mentari

Wajah yg tergambar
Tak akan terpudar
Dari hati insan yg fana ini
Fana ini...
Tak mungkin mentari
Akan terus sembunyi
Tiada sempadan
Tak bisa kulewati

Jika ini hakikatnya
Aku serahkan jiwa & ragaku
Menantimu walau sengsara
Jika ini ketentuannya
Jika ini hakikatnya
Aku serahkan jiwa & raga
Jika ini ketentuannya
kau kan jadi milikku Jua

***i'm a darn sucker for love songs love movies love stories!!!
enuf' said ....this is a darn fabulous love song!!! need i say more!!!

2005-03-23T21:24:00.000-08:00

Adek's bday at pasir ris

Yesterday i went to adeks bday party at pasir ris chalet......
i love the chalet so big!!!!
My 04 bday bash with abby should have been done there !!! cause
it can accomodate all my guests !!!
Well lets wait for my 05 bday bash with my abby sweet and lovely beeha!!
So lets hope i get to book that big chalet!!!!
Look out for the 05' bday bash!!!

hahahaha!!!!!!!0........

2005-03-19T23:59:00.000-08:00

my cousin's wedding

Today i went to uncle Johan's son wedding dinner.
finally i get to meet my cousin Husnah.....i havent seen
her for like a very long time!!
And i jus realize that i got two new found cousin!
first is Fala, my junior in RSS and my fellow school mates in Temasek!
then Farid....hehehe....this guy is my primary school mate...and i had a crush on him
when i was in pri sch! too bad he's attached at that point of time! all those sweet memories
i can't seem to forget!!! we grow too fast!

2005-03-14T07:56:00.000-08:00

i love it!!! my darling bought for me!!! he just know how to spoil me!!!

2005-03-13T07:46:00.000-08:00

fri nite

i can't wait to see him....
a mixture of emotions....
angry , pissed, disappointed....
but at the same time i miss him
damn too much....

sat

i went to coccolatte ....
didn't enjoy dat much cause i'm the only gurl!
settled our prob right outside cocco! (can u believe that!!??!)
damn pissed with the crowds.....suddenly the management bring down the age to
18 years old!! damn it!
but my dearest proved me wrong ! he did mean wat he said !!
and i love him! cause there's no one i'd rather be with ...than him!

2005-03-10T02:49:00.000-08:00

i'm so helpless.....i need my gurls but they can't be here!! i need them so much!!!
one is in zurich one is in bali one is having exams and another is in adelaide!
i'm all alone crying to myself!....

i'm just curious....to all the ladies out there.....is there such things like privacy between a commited couple?? i mean do ya mind ur bf keeping things from you? i mean my point of view is that there are no such things as privacy in a "committed" couple. even though one of them feels the need to keep sumthin from the other to prevent the other to get angry....i still feels its unappropriate. in a rship there must be a spread of laughter sadness happiness angriness .... i mean i dun mind getting angry they he did sumthin' ! rather than to find out that he kept sumthin from me!
i always believe that married couple divorce because they keep things from each other!

"it tooks her a lifetime to get to know her husband" ----- maybe this quote is true after all!
gurls where are u!!!!!!!! i need u guys!!

2005-03-07T02:45:00.000-08:00

we surprised camiel on sun .... we made her dressed up to the nine! she was gorgeous!!! i envy her!!!! i wish u all the best for NS ....love ya always!!! we all do!!

2005-03-04T02:21:00.000-08:00

i want that pants and i want that bag!! aww mi god!!!!!!!!! give me dat!!!!aarrgghhh!!!!

2005-03-03T22:58:00.000-08:00

the 'agents' of the day....."Persada Dikir"

2005-03-01T22:49:00.000-08:00

kak Sally and abg indra's wedding!

the got hitched on the 28th Feb 05 at the ROMM....
it was my first time there....and for no reason i felt nervous....
maybe the nervousness of the bride and groom got caught up with me....
She was beautiful as a swan .... he was charming like a prince.....
so perfectly compatible....
i was holding the groom's ring....i confess i was shaking....

when will it be my turn? will i dare to do it??? will i be ready ??

2005-02-28T22:10:00.000-08:00

the worse weekend ever!!!!!!!!!

before this stupid weekend..on friday... i played this 'supposed-to-be-or-can-be-true-if-played-with-full-concentration' game with my gurls and frens...and i asked this particular question...
"who among four of us (me, aaren,bee,sean) is going to have a bad weekend" and the answer is SEan!!!
but in reality it turns out to be me!!!!!!!
it started out on that fri nite!! right after the game i suddenly had a breakout....i started to think that i was a total failure....i depend too much on my BF and my mummy and daddy....and sumtimes even on my gurlfrens.....
after sulking too much.....i miss the last train
waste money on cabby when i already had none....

On sat, wake up with a terrible headache....i reckon its because of the weather is too hot...
dzul meeting me in the evening.....
the headache still there....vomit my lunch out.....feel like i got too much air inside...
met dzul at 6plus....still feeling like shit....i'm like spoiling the date...

tragic waves

went to paragon to see the tsunami pictures exhibition...
reminds me of the Aceh dancers who are sacrificed in the tragic waves ....
sometimes when i lay down on my bed....my mind was playing the 'scenes' of them crying because they didn't win during the palembang festivals(dec04)
sumtimes i wish that we(sg) didn't win it. cause we can try again. they should have won....last victory.

We had dinner at NYDC heeren. i couldn't eat ...cause if i eat i was afraid i would vomit.....its tiring to vomit!!!
i recommended baybeh a lasagne.....
he drank a jar of elephant sumthin' sumthin' hehehehe!!
i drank a cup of ice lemon tea....
i tried to have a bite of his lasagne....right after that i went to toilet 3 times and womit everything out!yucks!! it comes out from my nose too!!!!hehehehe!!!!
now confirm i'm having food poisoning!!aarrrgghhh!

still in the mood for window shopping !!!!
went to LV to enquire on baybeh shoe repair......
caught a glimpse ..ya rite! not just a glimpse ...almost drooling over their new pumps!!! so gorgeous!!!!
$1000 bucks aarrrgghhhh!!!

went home after dat......LV fever ....to contagious
when i reach home....my sweet honey gave me a ticklish massage!!!hahaha!!! i can't stand it!!
too ticklish!!....(my lil sis would say...."hey u dun ti-ke-le me ah"....instead of 'tic-kle'...muahahaha!!)

half an hour later....my fever reach 39 degrees....baybeh stuffed me with panadols ....i was practically unmovable...baybeh stayed a while to accompany me.....but left when its time to catch the last bus....

On Sun morning had to wake up early at 6 plus....cause today is the Persada Dikir ....
my fever subsides.....and when i thot my pains are all over ....no headeaches no fever no vomits...
i was strucked with a *RED Alert* aaaarrrgghhhh!!!!
My cramps are massive!!! worse then anything!!!! every four hours i stuffed myself with two capsules of shocking pink pills....

i just want to go home...............

2005-02-25T21:40:00.000-08:00

backtracking.........

week 4 of feb 05

this week spent most of my time with aaren going to the gym and swimming..
late evening walk in the park with myself..
watch the movie Hide & Seek with Abby...(can sombody explain to me wat happen to the father!!???! is he crazy or is he dead!??!!who killed the mum??!!who is the freaking Charlie??!!!)

quoted from the movie itself...."Char-lie....Char-lie....come out come out wherever you are......."

week 3 of feb 05

a busy week indeed... with Chingay ....tiring but pure fun...its not everyday dat you can dance on the busiest road in singapore....!!! glorious event!

attended dzul's first OCS social nite at hard rock..should check out the new indon band Warna Warni....the are sizzling hot..

Valentine's Day i spent it with him of coz...at the comfort of my living room. i think we are going take Vday off from our calendar....like farah says ..."its too commercialised"

2005-02-10T21:04:00.000-08:00

Chinese New Year Eve 8/2

drowning myself in Shirley Temples & Chocs in the comfort of puffy sofas at Liberty Chimes with Bee , ida , aaren, fai and nani

Chinese New Year 9/2

had a great time at wild wild wet with my whole family and dzul.
went to cocco to celebrate shahed's and andy's b'days!!

2005-02-07T01:03:00.000-08:00

but still despite my teary eyes and my bf who are pissed with me cause i went clubbing....i'm still having a great time with these sexy chicas!!!!

2005-02-07T01:00:00.000-08:00

When to coccolatte last sat ... hate it cause i keep tearing with my overdued lenses..aarrrgghhh....

2005-02-05T07:10:00.000-08:00

i haven't been sniffin' my blog ....
its bout' time i start snifflin' up and punch each word for you guys to get fill in on things that i've done or had not done or things that happen to me or did not happen or happening moments or non-happening moments.....muahahaha...

Last entry was Jan 12...today is feb 5 ...hmmm...let me try to remember everything....
went clubbin' with bee and oms on the 15th....damn my cuzzin's friends couldn't enter the club cause they were not 23!
got a very important interview on the 17th before i leave for KL...prayed ver hard to get thru'...
:::::KL trip:::::
KL was a blast ...it was just me and my two cuzzies..curled up my hair again ...i regret it now!! cause it wasn't as good as the first time!!SG 'made' hair is always better than ..hmmm....u know where!!!even tho' its expensive in SG its always better!!
We celebrated hariraya haji with the rest of the family at my grandma's place...Not much shopping done...dunno why....
got back on sun night ...one night earlier than planned cause i got the letter for my next interview!!! damn happy!!
:::::interview:::::
made frens with a few gurls....interview was ok ...but u'll never know....

:::::beeha's engagement
busy at her house....can feel the intensity that she's goin thru'
hehehehe!!! beeha got fiancee already!!!NEXT!

:::::disappointment
aarrgghh didn't get the job....felt so damn unlucky!!!
dad very disappointed...
mum very supportive
so r my gurlfrens....
aarrrggghhhhh!!!
can never be perfect!!

::::::American IDol wannabes
muahahaha....
been going for karaoke session alot lately...well two days in a row...
consider its alot!!!
had fun!!! singing like crazy ppl!!!
::::::Sun tanning
went to sentosa with bee and aaren....
its been a long time....
the sun misses me alot...
gonna get that tan back!

well.....i guess these are the "Days of my Life"
(comment from devoted viewers: "aiyah not enuf' scandal ah!! wat happen to carrie!!???")

2005-01-12T01:51:00.000-08:00

Quality time with gurlfrens!!!

met up with ab and bee on tuesday...
went to eat fish & co at glass house...
miss them so much !!!
rozi joined us abit later after dinner...
i'm glad that we met up cause its been a long time
since the four of us actually hooked up ....with all four in!!
this sat wanna go cocco before bee gets engaged!
so fast my sweet bee gonna have a ring on her hand!!
too bad this sat ab got flight!
so only bee and zee can make it...
anyway love you gurls to the max!! will never trade
you guys for anything in the world!!!muaakszz!!

2005-01-11T23:50:00.000-08:00

kak cha cha bday party @hard rock

celebrated her 25th bday yesterday 10th jan
tho' it was a monday....it was pure fun!!
two of my dearest gf was there too...
who could have bet for a great nite on a monday!!
kak cha sang zapin dut ...she was shocked!! muahahaha!!
i'm sure she had a great time...i had a great time laughin'
my stomach out while kumar stand on the stage looking
pretty as always...
of coz i was going gu gu ga ga over taufiq batisah
who was there too!!! oh migod he was so good looking!!
the girls and manage to get taufiq outside to take photos
one on one!!
oh mi god i just dun wan to let him go!! he smell so good!!
anyone knows wat perfume is he wearing???
i'm sounding like a typical teenage yah! i noe! hehehe!!
but can't help it !! already infront of me so i have to just grab him!!
too bad ah not my camera....must wait for kak sally to find time to upload!

p/s: kak sally upload faster can??? i need to see it in order to sleep!!
muahahaha!!

p/s:to taufiq, love u dude!
next time take picture must show teeth k!

p/s:to kak cha happy bday!

2005-01-07T10:39:00.000-08:00

Top 3 contestant for Miss Singapore!! muahahahaha!!

2005-01-07T10:38:00.000-08:00

miss my gurls!

2005-01-05T19:31:00.000-08:00

kuzzins-nite

i had a great time with my two dearest kuzzins - Ena & Azhar...
its been a tradition for the three of us to sleep over my house...
al-ameen will be our venue for us to eat Tom-yum Noodles and
teh O-peng....
last tues nite was a 'walk down memory lane' for the three of us!
we recap our childhood memories! our old childhood town!
we realise that we had a fortunate and a memorable childhood
and we are proud of that!

to both my lovely kuzzins! without u guys my childhood wouldn't be
as great as it is .... love u both!

p/s:Happy bday Azhar...finally 20!!hehehe!!

2005-01-03T07:39:00.000-08:00

NYE 04' Coccolatte!! happenning place to be!!! if u r not there!!! u r so lame!!!hahahaha!!!! Anyway drool yourself to these beautiful chicas!!!! photos courtesy from farah!!! Photos from my camera a bit delayed, i'll upload it by this weekend!! till then feast ur eyes on us!!! The soFA dancers!!! muahaha!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2004-12-31T09:28:00.000-08:00

Natalia's New Year Resolution

Decide whether i want to have straight hair or curly hair
Stop losing HP
Stop losing IC (lost 3 times already!!)
Start Saving!!
Stop Junking!
Eat one meal a day!
Stock more tomatoes!
DEcide on my Career Path
Finish my degree
Smile more
Be a SQ gurl! hahaha!!
Make my mum and dad happy!
Stop hurting People!
Stop flirting!
Stop crying!
BUy more bags & shoes!!
MAke my skin look a bit tanner...
Make my blog a happy blog
MAke more PARTIES!! i want to be a PARTY planner!!
Stop making Syi-cin laugh
Make my kuzzin happy...and make her stop being sad

And most important thing is to stop eating Nutella with bread, on da bed onda bed!!!

hahaha!!!

So wats yours???muahahaha!!!

LOve to all who loves me::::::

2004-12-31T08:50:00.000-08:00

Re-cap of my 2004 chapter......

After my graduation in 2003, i started working with a company where i forsee growth and development. It was a great experience with lots of responsibilities.

I started 2004 with the wrong foot....
On 1st jan 04 i lost my darling phone which i love so much! I lost my IC!!!.....aaarrrgghh!! All these due to the NYE crowd!!

My work is getting hectic by day.... with two classes to attend a week
Sometimes i wonder if working life is suppose to be that way...if it is , how do ppl have families! i missed alot of opportunities while working. Although i managed to meet alot of new ppl from different part of the world, i lost my current ones....
i lost my chance to travel with my dancemates, i lost my chance to continue dancing, I spent lesser times with my family, i didn't get to go out with my gurlfrens as much as i want to, and most of all...i neglected my bf.

but i love my job!! just dat .....aaarrgghhh!

April: I went to my first overseas convention!
It was a definite eye-opener for me!

then came Aug i decided to quit my job! Finally!
An in August i held the best bday party ever!!!
It was Ab's and mine!! it was the best bday party i ever had!!

In August Dzul got enlisted ...
And i started to dance again...first show was Malam Serumpun Seni
then Malam Jaluran Seni...
then the trip that i've been waiting for, Palembang! didn't get to go all the previous Palembang trip due to school and work commitment! BUt all worth the wait!

Of course like i say 2004 is not my year! i close this year with a broken heart.....
Love to all who loves me.....Happy New Year

"Dear God, i know i've not been a very good girl this year,

i know i hurt a lot of ppl, and i know make a lot of ppl sad,

and i know there's a lot of ppl crying due to my wrongdoings

but can u give me another chance? Can u make 2005

the best year for me ? but dun make it better than 2006

cause i want 2006 to be better than 2005, just make it better

than 2004, if i'm blessed with a consolation prize, i would be happy

if u make it just 'a bit' better! Please god i promise to be a good gurl

next year and next year after that..."

2004-12-29T08:19:00.000-08:00

Love is the master-secret of all beautiful things....

Someone asked me, what was my own definition of love...
My first thought was you....
Love to me is you...
Without you there is no love ....
i'm sorry for the silent tears you had to break for me...
i didn't mean to....really...
it was not suppose to happen this way...
i was confused...lost...drowned

did i really change alot?
did i really love u lesser by a day?

for a moment there i thot i lost you from my heart.
but....things got clearer as i got sober by day...
i didn't lose you, i lost myself...
i was drowned in my past...my dream...my hopes...my wishes
forgive me baby......

Here is my confession

May I be your possesion

Boy I need your touch

Your love kisses and such

With all my might I try

But this I can't deny

I play it off but im dreamin of you

I'll keep my cool but I'm fiendin

I try to say good bye and I choke

I try to walk away and I stumble

Though I try to hide it it's clear

My world crumbles when you are not near

2004-12-27T10:33:00.000-08:00

4 days to New Year.....

so fast 2004 is winding......wat will be my new year resolution? Lose 20 kg? Win big money?Get rich and famous? be friends with PAris and Nicole?
NAH!
my new year resolution is to ....hmmm....arrrgghh i dunno! i'll get back!

arrrgghh!!!
i'm not feeling quite well.....
my head spinning.....boy i'm in a daze.....

2004-12-27T09:38:00.000-08:00

tiring.......

its been a long time since i work.....crizzy eve, crizzy day and boxing day....i went to help my dad at his shop...
My god ! i hate werking on public holiday or sale period cause customers are so damn irritating on these kind of days.... well ...not that i'm complaining ... how could i ! i'm a retail student!!!muahahaaha!!

Anyway earn some bucks for me to party !! (cause i'm damn freaking broke man) Dad's the best employer! haha!!

Crizzy eve:

I went to meet the fockers with syi-cin, aqmal, sappy, su, kakju, abg mas,kak cha, abg yan and kak sally... Aaren ....hmmmm he left us for "coccolatte"!!! not forgetting my dearest fruitheart chose to enjoy crizzy eve without me and went for a boys nite out instead to coccolatte!!!! i'm so ANGRY!!!!!!aaaarrrgggghhh!!!

nevertheless my time was well spent.....(except for 1 thing! my dearest beeha was stucked with a delayed flight from beijing!!!! aaarrrgghh!poor gurl when she met me at 2am, she was suffering with face rashes!!! she was slapping her face most of the time!! hahaha!!love u gurl!)

The Fockers was very nice to us.....we enjoy their company very much!! hahaha!!! they were very sexually incline! and they made us sexually comfortable and we have been 'fockerized' by the fockers!!

2nd last week of 2004:

***watched Ocean 12 with Bee, AB, Oms and dzul.....
I love the movie!!!
Brad Pitt is so charming in white!!
For those S-L-O-W lembab... better dun watch! hahaha!!!

***watched After the sunset with my fruitheart...
quite similar to Ocean 12...
gives me the desire to be a robber!!! hahaha!!!
And SAlma hayek is so damn sexy!!
For those who loves me pls watch!! hahaha!!!

2004-12-21T19:22:00.000-08:00

these are among those who came.....the rest are a bit photo shy ...and some wored too sexy PJ's that they can't be photographed! hahaha!!! Too R(A) for my blog...hahaha!!!

2004-12-20T04:55:00.000-08:00

Pj party.....!!!!
Venue: Nat houz aka Nat Club!! (hahaha!!!)
Date:18th December 2004
Time: 10 pm till wee hours
Guestz
(Mr) : Abg Mas, Abg Yan,Ikhsan
(Miss/Mrs) : Kak Ju. Sally, Sarimah, Shikin, Suhaila, Wati, Kak Cha, Sapinah, Ifah, Leha, Baya
(Divas): Aaren, Camiel, Amin (hehehe!!!)
(If i miss any names....tag me at my chat room ya..!!)

oh my gosh!!! i had a great nite!!!
most of them turn up !!!except a few!!!
MOst of my thanks goes to my mum for cooking and my dad
for sponsoring the party!!!MOst importantly to all my sporting guests who came in their PJ's!!!

Anyway lets get ready for the next party!!!! New Year Eve PARTY!!!

2004-12-17T08:26:00.000-08:00

wat a fool i've been......

i knew that it would happen....i knew that everybody will put the blame on me.....
but still i have the trust.....
i knew wat i did was wrong .... i never once felt ...... wat i did was right....
but was it just my fault.... that shit happens....but why am i the only one blamed....
.... will i ever get the chance to speak my mind!!! but its my bad ... who else to blame...its my bad....its my bad....
.......i never failed to be so naive....
.........here i am again.....pouring my bad

2004-12-16T07:26:00.000-08:00

to all my lovely friends new pictures are up....the one at kaki 5, Cik Hamim's Palembang Pictures, Suhaila & Wati's...

2004-12-14T23:05:00.000-08:00

love u guys alot!!!

2004-12-14T22:51:00.000-08:00

those were the days ... palembang was the place ... looking forward for happy days

2004-12-14T14:48:00.000-08:00

imitation warung:::::

i had fun last night thanks to faizul, aaren and koko!!
Even though we are just chilling around ... i'm glad that i have all three of u by my side!!
hahaha!! gelojohnye aku ni!!!
We start off by eating late lunch at my house....followed by shutter at my living room ...
then the three of us decided to kill some 'nyamuk' at macdonalds!! untill we have to leave coz its clozing time... koko join us shortly ...had tea at 888.... then we realize.....Nah !!! this is not warung!!!! Tak selesa langsung!!! Not comfy!!! so we decided to move!!!

Mutually we decide to chill at aaren's place!! just as wat we expected! so comfortable!!!! can sleep already!!! haha!! watch white chick! hilarious!!!hahaha!!!

Can't believe that i actually walked from aaren's place which is exactly infront of admiralty all the way back to my house!!!but it was great i get to see the stars!!...And i shall thank my *star who accompanied me back home....

Er guys can we do this again???:)

2004-12-13T22:09:00.000-08:00

again and again:::::